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Monday, July 31, 2006
2:37 AM

Ermx.....lets see.Today was okay.Never really see x and had some stoopid CME test.yupp.Laughed alot wif shenna and heyong.Sadly shenna not comin to school tomorrow.hais.I will confirm miss dat retard and cute one.haha!yupp.dam bored and sad.Weekends was dam shit.Smthin,someone said to me is affecting me alot.And im juz afraid to hear wad i dont want to hear frm dat special someone/x.hais.hais.Wad if it is?I dun think i can take it.I dunno.Forgettin her now will hurt me and hearin wad i dun want to will hurt me more.Either way i get hurt.Hais.I really dunno.Confused lyk fcuk.




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Friday, July 28, 2006
10:06 PM

FRIDAY'

Surprisingly friday and thursday was a good day.Usually these two days are the most hectic ones but it was great.Shenna,heyong and me have been laughin alot.Friday was fun.Had same recess as x.She dam cute sia.XD!yupp.Then had Pe,science and maths.SHENNA,why you left?hmph.shenna left at 12 for some dance thingy.missed her loads.Then had lunch. Literauture was really fun.yupp.Then had np.well np was really tough.got pumped.But i shld say e ma'ams are really nice and pretty!haha!

Im worried for azu.She's really sad over some things.hais.I cant satnd it when she's sad.AZU CHEER UP PLS!yupp.pls call me when you're free okay?and dun suffer silently.I LOVE MY BRO!!!!




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Thursday, July 27, 2006
2:27 AM

HELLO!Have not been bloogin for a long time.Quite a number of things have been happenin.haha.if there's a word to describe it is CONTRADICTING!haha!!X has been so mean.But she said smthing nice ystd to azu.And to day she smiled,so all i can say is tat she's dam CONTRADICTING.But i will love x no matter wad.yupp.And azu CHEER UP.DUN BE SAD.you've got me!tc!!loves!!




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Saturday, July 22, 2006
8:41 PM

Baby... Seems like everywhere I goI see you...
From your eyes, your smile
It's like I breathe you...
Helplessly I reminisce
Don't want to...
Compare nobody to you




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8:30 PM

HELLO!!!went to school ystd for the science thing.I SAW X!!!!!!!!woots.yupp.We were playin with slime.It was dam fun.I had a great time at the science thingy.Went home with santhiya and dharsh.F***.Juz cause i see x everydae it doesnt make me happy.Do you know it makes me worse.When i see x and e thought of me n x impossible makes me die.Im dyin internally larx.So stop sayin all tat and make me die more.Hais....Yupp.came home.Then i was doin maths and science papers lyk fcuk.Im dead tired.Did till dinner.and had to continue aft.dinner.Then go n sleep.So sucky larx.

Todae mornin woke up at 6.30.Cause i got violin.Came back.Parents went temple cause there's a prayer thing in e evenin...Hopefully my mum will go to e temple again in e evenin.Yupp.Im sad.abt x.hais.I really dun want to tell anyone.My sister makes me worse.My frens try to convince me tat there's hope.hais.My emotions are filled to the brim.Im chokin in tears and sorrow.Dun wish to elaborate.My final decission is not to tok abt this to anyone cause i think i irritate ppl and no one cares.Im not selfish when i think this way but its e truth.




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Thursday, July 20, 2006
2:51 AM

Life in school has been really sucky the past few days.Wild wild wet has officialy been closed due to some bloody losers who went to complain to mrs nair.but she aint scold us.She was lyk 'dun play next time'.yupp.So bored.Not fun.Nth much.Tuesday was e worst.It was dam shit.I even cried in school.But thats smthing else.But atleast there was a gd outcome.I really miss x.Hais.I feel lyk i dun stand a dam chance wif x.hais.im so sad.I juz hope tomorrow will be a really good day.This week was not really a good one.hope tomorrow and e up comin weeks will be a good one.yupp.tats abt it.Im so sad.hais...but i still LOVE X AND LIMEGREEN!!!WOOTS!!!!




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Monday, July 17, 2006
2:51 AM

YAY!!!!Finally im back to school.My day rawked!!!Entered school saw..azu.ermx..yupp.Then i was greeted by my sweetheart!!!!SHENNA!!!haha!!!Then went to hall.Saw x.Everytime i turn back i can see her.It was fun!!!Saw x a number of times!!!!!!I LOVE X!!physics was super fun.stoopid santhiya makin fun of me n x!everything was great!!!!But....im still in a confusion.Tat someone said dat she was sorry.But i dunno.The hurt is deeply in my heart.Hais....But im goin to be as high as possible.And live my life to the fullest!!WOOTS!!!




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Friday, July 14, 2006
5:13 PM

*gosh.No matter how i try to convince myself tat wad e person din mean anything dat she said.But the words keep on ringin im my ears.SELFISH.SELFISH.SELFISH.GO AWAY.GO AWAY.hais.I was so looking forward to go to school and stuff and now i juz dont.I dun understand you.You just proved to someone wad they said.I feel so hurt.I know you're not affected by this not even 0.01%.This really affects me.And i know you dun and wun care.Even we start tokin to each other the pain is deeply in my heart.Hais.HURT.HURT.HURT.HURT.




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2:44 AM

This is my second time in life bein hurt by someone whom i really treasure greatly.I juz dun get it.The person says im selfish.Wad?For gettin pist...WTH?Its so stoopid yet hurtin.If you think im selfish would i care for you when you were sad?wld i bother smsing and calling you to find out if you're okay?and nw wld i be happy for you since you're happy?Come on dude.Im so sick and tired of all this nonsence.I've been so considerate not to hurt anyone resultin in me suffering silently.And just once,i repeat once,i get pist you say im selfish?Man.I'm so hurt.And when i said i miss you i really mean it.hais.no point explanin.Finally you told me to go away rite?I will...forever.Just forget i existed in yr life.I bet its easy for you and you're happy sice im such a selfish person.I feel so hurt.I really neva expect you to say tat.Ia tat how much you valued me and my frenship?hais.NOTHING will eva cure this pain of hurt.




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Thursday, July 13, 2006
5:35 PM

Man.This is so annoyin.I mean why must Dharsh think im angry?Dharsh if ure readin this try to understand this, do yuo think im free juz coz i at home?NO!im not im stuck in two frenship problem,I got to settle for someone another problem and juz coz i dun call you,you think i angry.And abt x dat thing do you think i wun tell you?i wanted to personally call you larx,i called but you werent at home.All i can say is dat u din understand me.Im so upset larx.Hais.and ppl pls larx if you think my blog is filled with x and its rubbish then dun read lar.argh*




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Wednesday, July 12, 2006
10:42 PM

I really miss school.I miss all my frens.I miss X!I miss my table and chair.I miss lessons.In coclusion,i miss school alot.i wanna go back.My mummy say most prob.i will go back on mondae!okay. But it feels weird to go back cause i feel very outdated,not knowin wad to do.But tats okay cause my dearie,shenna will help me.I hope x misses me.haha!she wun miss me even if i die.haha!okay..nvm.i juz cant wait for mondae.so sad i've got to miss tomorrow coz i got same recess as x.hais.But my 'eyes' (shenna) will help me look out for x.I miss vani.i dunno wassup wif her.She's really down lately.hopefully she cheers up.yupp.tats abt it.Those who really miss me you can buy me chocolates when i return!haha!!!!




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Tuesday, July 11, 2006
9:55 PM

Its confirmed.I went to e doc ystd.And its confirmed dat im havin chicken pox.I've been really touched by some ppl.but its nice to stay at home too.XDI really miss shenna.frens.I love all my friends.They are so sweet.Mrs fuji apple says she wants to visit me and feed me.So sweet rite??haha.Well,im really touched and i miss all you guys and duh!I MISS X!!!and i hope im missed too.But there is that someone who always dun care.But i've got to care for e person if the person is sad or sick but in return e person is actually happy,fcuk e person.I cannot be bothered of that person.Stop actin concern in front of ppl.And frm this second im goin to remove yr existance frm my mind.Which means im goin to avoid you.No more callin you or messagin you or chattin wif you.
Positive thing of havin chicken pox:
1)Everything is well served.
2)I dun have to do anything.
3)Relax alot.
Negative things of havin chicken pox:
1)Its very itchy.
2)I miss school.
3)I miss X!
4)I miss all my frens lyk fcuk




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1:59 AM

WTH?im havin symtoms of chicken pox.sBoo...dat means i cant come to skool which means i cant see x.wtf!Not only tat i cant see my dearies and sweethearts.*sigh.man im so sad.hais.btw.todae was fun.Me n shenna as usual goin crazy.And todae was e first time seein x wif pe shirt.so cuteee.and i took picture of x!!!haha.and im happy for my bro.Finally azu is happy and im happy.i've neva really seen her veri happy and when i reaaly see dat smile of hers im really happy.Hope she will be happy lyk this 4eva!yupp.tats abt it.man im so sad.I dun wanna get chicken pox.*sigh.




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Friday, July 07, 2006
9:38 PM

FRIDAY'

Friday was good in e beginin.Shenna,dharsh n me were goin down for assembly..on our way down we saw x,enterin skool and she was runnin.so cute!!Then as she walked past me she actually brushed past me!!!!XD!haha...k...then i had same recess as x!everything was goin great till jovee said dat 'npa' asked x to __________.*sigh.That really made me confused.Dearie,shenna,is tellin me not to li sten to anyone.dunno....man!im so confused.

SATURDAY'

I woke up early coz had skool.On my way to skool both my bloody parents were lecturin me.wth!they were de-moralisin me lyk fcuk.tellin me certain hurtful sturf.WHY?why must parents be lyk tat?why cant they understand their child and stop bein so bloody bias.I always have to get scoldin,even if i din do anything.The worst is when i get scoldin for my sister which always happens.:(and i hate my sister.wth!she's so bloody annoyin.FINE!let it be u got only one sister,yr gp!let it be cause i onli have one sibling,azu.Though i know her for a short time, she's been really nice to me.Always there for me.and cheerin me up when i was down in e dumps.hais...____said to me dat i burden ppl wif my problems.But there's noly two ppl whom i tell my problems,one is azu and shenna.AZU and SHENNA...am i burdenin you guys?maybe i am...therefore..frm today i shall keep everything to myself.Im sorry azu,shenna,santhiya.dharsh,vanietc..i did it.i know you guys told me not to.i really could nt tahan.The words...hurtin.hais....




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Thursday, July 06, 2006
2:16 AM

hais....Life has been weird.shld i say its good coz i've bein seein x quite a no.of times and dat im havin a gd time in skool?or shld i say my life is bad due to wad happen aft.skool or dat things at home becomes worse?man.im so hurt.how could they do dat?im really sick and tired.lyk wad shenna posted in her blog if love is all abt gettin hurt and cryin and stuff....i feel lyk runnin away,runnin far away.but everytime i walk past x my ffelins get stronger and deeper...hais...is life goin to carry on?and leave me hurt,sad and confused everyday?or is things goin to change?lyk wad some have said to me..shld i make e first move?im so sick and tired of all these..i dun want to go to skool.but i lyk goin to skool coz of SHENNA!i juz love dat gurl to bits.i love 'goin swimmin' wif her!!!!and i miss my bro!hope dat she's havin a gd time!




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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
2:07 AM

My life sucks!!!!i feel so lousy.
I'm at my lowest point of my life.
I'm snapped into deep thoughts.
Im drownin in depression.
There's nth left to say.i've lost hope for everything.
sad.confused.heartbroken.




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Monday, July 03, 2006
4:47 AM

Ermx...lets see...My day has been so bloody fuckin shit!Mornin i woke up by azu's phonecall.its gd to hear her voice aft.a long time!*smiles*.i really wanted to go for MM's closin ceremony...its not lyk i want to hear e ppl sing or wad-so-eva,i wanted to help santhiya wif fuji apple!But my dam mother wun let me go and she started scoldin me sayin dat i was behavin dam teruk ystd.WTH?goodness!!i din misbehave larx!WTF?!i juz hate my mother lyk fcuk.and she said some other stuff dat are dam hurtin dat i cant tahan.i attempted to ____my ____.and ppl dun be surpries if on wednesdae you all see _________in my ______.and e onli thing dat is cheerin me up is e candies and sweets!!!man.i hate my life and i hate my mum equally.sigh* seems lyk azu is upset over smthin....CHEER UP SWEETHEART!!!yupp dats abt it.i really hope things between me and my mum gets better!sigh*but i dun think dat will be happenin so soon.




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Sunday, July 02, 2006
7:56 PM

'MM'

Finally!Aft.beegin my parents,they allowed me to go for e music marathon wif shenna and vani...so left home at abt 5.25pm.met vani at e mrt station.took e train to e ps and met shenna there.we went arnd the place for a while and went to BK to makan.we were laughin lyk some crazy ppl.and then vani was lyk goin crazy went she saw this guy...and shenna and me were lyk...u dun even noe e dam guy and stuf...but it was funny...bullyin vani!!!then we left the place at abt 6.55.took a taxi down to MW though it was so near.when we reached MW we went to the candy empire to buy some candies(duh!)hahax!In conclusion i had a great time.+)




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Saturday, July 01, 2006
1:39 AM

Todae is saturdae,and so far my day sucks lyk fuck.I've been cryin frm mornin till now.I woke up and realised that no one was at home.My parents went out and sis had gone to skool.My stomach was killin me lyk fcuk.cannot tahan but slowly went to take my shower and stuff.Then wanted to use e com...so i used for abt an hr.then my parents and sis came back..WTF!my mum started shoutin at me...wah!!dam bloody fucked up..went to my room and closed e door coz i cant bear to hear the nasty scoldin and for closin e door i got so much of scoldin....dam f***ed up.Luckily i had tution...tution was fun!aft.tution my mother started her bloody naggin..*argh.i din give a bloody shit,i went to my room started wif my tution h.w.then sivvy sms-ed me and well...i replied.(duh!)then we were sort of lyk messagin and stuff....and then smthin she said...hurts me lyk fcuk..k.well...its not she hurt me or anithin but e thing she said hurts...she said x ____________*argh.man dat made my day lyk shit.it juz shows dat me and x IMPOSSIBLE.*sigh worst still.im supposed to meet shenna and vani and ps..then bloody fuckin hell my mum says she want to bring me for music marathon!WTH!im bloody sad.i broke down dam teruk and it was infront of my sis.my sissy sae's dat i shld not hold on and dat i shld forget her.dude.its not easy...6mnths.aiyo.....cannot take it....i dun feel lyk bloogin alr.it juz makes me worse:(
sad,hurt,fuck-ed up,confused.