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`FINALLY!

This 3 days,Wednesday,Thursday and Friday have been really shitted.
I was like so sad can?
So much problems and things revolving.
FINALLY today i've cleared my mind and yes,sucrose i know what i want alr.
She* talked to me today.Not much of a talk but it was.Hah.
And about ***** i dunno.If she wants to talk i'm fine if she dont want to can i force?
And if she dont want to..i dunno la and i cannot be bothered.She promised me anyway rmb?
Ya so i'm done with all this shit now.
School was rather err.Shebe never come)):
Talked to pauline on the phone today.OMFG i miss her!
Enough with that i wanna do some dedications now.

SHENNA:))
Hey dearie.ILY:)
Thanks alot for everything.Really.
The advices you gave me last year and even consoling me when you was sick yesterday night.
I really appreciate it.
Take care:)Get well soon okay?
Mr duck will be there for ya on the behalf of me to take care of you!
Haha.

MATT:))
Hey mattie!
Sorry if i was hard on you for the past few days about the whole azureen thing.
Take care and dont be sad ya?ILY my toopid sister:))

`Fucking fuck.

This 2 days are just plain fuck.
I cried in school like some bitch because i miss someone.
WTF?
I hate it la.And to top it all Matt did something that really makes me wanna die.
She told her* that i miss her.
#@$@#$$@#$.
Look Matt,if you're reading this I'm sorry if i was too hard on you but I'm still so fucking angry.
Why did you tell her without my consent.
Yes,i do miss her i don't disagree but hey please don't tell me she doesn't feel it?
If she don't then,i can only conclude that she frigging hell did not treasure the friendship we had.
And what did she reply for what you said "i will try".
Wow amazing eh?
I'm so hurt la.
Wednesday i realised a bitch called her* fucker and you can ask santhiya how angry i got.
So much for treasuring that person.
I can go on and on but what is the fucking point when you alr know that the person dont care.

You know i cant even describe my emotions la.
I feel like punching the wall.Actually i alr did that and eneded up injuring myself.
How smart.
I wanna fall sick la so i can skip school.
Mentally and physically torn.

`Tuesday:)

Today was indeed fun!
Haha.
Shebe was sick:(But she was as crazy as ever.
Home ec was hilarious thanks to sukanya's and vani's constant argument.
Even Mrs Nair agrees!Haha.
Then free period was okkayy.
Just finished up math homework and was talking abt buffalo!
Then recess was super funny with sukanya's rubbish.LOL.
Pe was err up and down!
I was super saddd about something or shld i say someone?!
Was in the stage of crying but didnt.
Played captains ball.That was funnn.Esp shobi catch!!!!
Lit was errr normal.
Math was fun excluding the part where the teacher walked out but it wasnt anyone's fault.
Yeah she walked out thats about it.
Oh and heyong tripped during math.
Me and shebe laughed till can die.HAHAHAHA.
Yeah thats about it for the day.
Will be going running later if it doesnt rain!

5 MORE DAYS<<33's

I miss her,
I miss her daily hugs,
I miss talking to her,
I miss texting her,
I miss calling her,
I miss her rubbish,
I miss someone carrying me,
In conclusion i miss her la.

`Friday:)

Today was fun fun.
Haha.
morning run was so shitted can?
You run then walk then run then walk.Annoying luh.
Then had home ec.Was okay luh.
Shebe had Chinese so walked her to Chinese class.
Me and vani were walking around the whole school and was talking to her abt *ahems* and someone else.Haha.
Had fun.
Then recess was okay.
Chemistry is like so err...SCARY?!
She's so fierce la.Then we had to do some experiment or something.Me and shebe were eating the peanuts.Hehe.Sukanya and santhiya worse la.
Fun only started during Lit.The teach wasnt there.
Did the work she gave and me,shebe,suk and san played truth or dare.
HILARIOUS.
Santhiya!!Omfg.
Haha.Not fair?Dont worry will work out soon.Haha.
Then had tamil.Tamil was fun luh.
Segar forever being crazyyyy.
M.i.t the bonding session dunno what happened,went to the library and they werent there.
Went back home with suk and fernand.Sukrose so sweet she bought me a ice-cream.So surprising can?Haha.
Wathced fashion house!!
FASHION HOUSE RAWKS!!!<333'si'm>
Yeah...

I MISS *AHEMS*!<333's.
9 more days.

Good luck shebe,vani and suk for yr competition.

`Wednesday.

Hey:)
I'm not feeling better but compared to ystd my mood is better and so is mind quite relaxed.
Dont know why but feeling better.Thank god.
Maybe because i wrote a super long letter to shebe and it helped?
I'm not sure but hey atleast i feel better and thats what matters?!Hah.

School was okay,fun indeed.The usual crapping around.
And during math sat with santhiya and was blabbering about Sunday.Haha and was complaining about my "dad"(Mr.ashraf eh?)Haha.
Hilarious.

I MISS SUNDAY:(
Haha,and matt is like you just saw ahem like 3 days ago?And you will be seeing like 2 weeks time.
True but two weeks is such a long time:((
But atleast compared to months i will stick to weeks.Hehe.

Cramps.Argh:/
I think i will be skipping pe this whole week.Not really in the mood,see first.

You're everything i want and everything i need.

`Continue..
Hah.Guess what i posted like half an hour ago and i slashed myself alr.
Wonderful eh?
Yeah pist,hurt,annoyed.
This is how i feel.
Feel like getting a transfer of school or some shit.
My problems used to only haunt me at night making me sleepless now its like every minute kinda shit.
@#$#$%#%.

`Monday.
Hey yes i agree my previous post very emo.Blah blah.
But i dont care la,that was what i feeling..ya like anyone would give a fuck.
Especially you*.
I feel hurt,sad.
I told you how i felt at that time.But all you did wasslike take care.
Maybe i expect too much?I dont think so.You expect me to care when you frigging hell dont care abt me.
Fine la be that way.You know at the rate things go i swear i will friggin hell slash myself.

`Emo-shit.

Yes,i know haven't been updating.Yeah,holidays are not even holidays can.
Half the time is spent doing so much of time still what shit.

Yeah,read someone's blog and urm..now with so much shit revolving arnd my mind i got the urge to slash myself,2 lines.Reasons.one for family one for friends.
Yeah full stop luh dont wanna elaborate.So fucking hell hate my life la.
And if any bitch out there think i'm trying to get attention well simply this is what i got to say to you:fuck yourself.
You think someone will hurt themself to attract attention?You wont know what someone is going through la.
Wadever wanna think like that go ahead i dont give a fuck.This is my blog so i will type what i feel cause a blog basically is a online journal so yeah.
Just so shit-ed now cant think str8.Yeah blog sometime.


I wanna runaway where hell is a placed called my bloody life.

`Sick:/

I HATE BEING SICK!
There's absolutely nothing nice to be sick, esp.if you're having fever on and off, with a blocked nose and bad cough:(((
Furthermore when i'm sick i dont do anything but sit and relax but instead of relaxing i start to think about lots of stuff and recall my past.And that TOTALLY sucks.
Hais.
School has been the same.Blah blah..
Got back report book and stuff.
There's Tamil camp on Monday and i still have not made up my mind.
I have been debating within myself..should i go or should i not go..
And i think _____ is overreacting about the whole tamil camp and the committee members.And i find her so selfish and i find her boot licking my tamil teacher.Ah what the heck.Shobi doesnt give a friggin care..wanna boot lick then boot lick lah.My only concern is to do well.Yet..should i go?Maybe i will go in the afternoon part since im in-charge of the talent time which is in the evening..So which means i will leave home early and then go out with vani then go for the camp late.Yepp..
My whole is aching,my head is so painful..arghhhh I HATE BEING SICK..
I shall go and rest.

OUT.

`Today.

Great,this is officially my 200th blog post.
I feeling so stupid or maybe thats cause i really am.
I screwed my exams and my results stinks.Hais.
History and math was badly done)):
1 MORE MARK!!!!!Hais.
My marks went up for scince so i got A1 now!That was something that made my day(:
Tamil was okay luh considering the fact that i dint prepare anything.But i still wished i had done better.I mean if santhiya is reading this she will be like..wad e hell but really if i got higher for tamil it will pull my average up.But im satisfied with 80!Thank you god:)
But i shall be more optimistic.I dint fail any subject so i dont have to go back for re-test.YAY!
Thats enough for the whole result thing.
Yesterday shebe,vani and suk had heats.
GO!
Haha shebe and vani came in second and suk fifth position for short put.
Thats about it.
OUT.

I really wish i could runaway and never come back...

`Pist.

I was fine,super fine till now.
Fuck it.Wanted to blog about friday and ystd BUT now i dont wish.
Guess i have to blog abt that when Im HAPPY.
Bloody shit.I'm so angry and actually more like hurt.
I dont understand you*.
I really dont and at this point of time i really dont want to.What is you problem ah?Hais
Mummy (santhiya) always tells me not to bottle up my feelings and stuuf and that i shuold talk to someone about how i feel but at this moment ithink i will just live with this bloody feeling.Whats the point of taking my feelings or the problem when the person involbed doesnt give a fuck.Want to be this way i'm fucking hell fine with it.Its not like you are the only human who has feelings okay?I also do.HATE ME THEN PISS OFF.

Hey people:)
Havent been blogging much lately.
So i shall blog what happened from monday to thursday (:












HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEBE WEBE LONE!!
Since its was shebe's birthday i shall dedicate a small part of my post:)
Shenna thanks for always being there for shobi whenever i was down,or advicing shobi whenever i needed advice.And yes,i know i seem to be in a world of my own at times but that doesnt mean im not there for ya k?Take care and love you tons shebe webe lone:))(i love that name!!)

`Monday.
Today was okay luh.
Had math paper in the morning and science paper in the afternoon.
Math was ah dont wish to say.
Science was okay.Neither easy nor tough.
After school heyong or me went to heartland to collect shebe-webe's cake.Came back to school and surprised shebe with the cake.So yeah thats about it.

`Wednesday.
Since nothing much happened on tuesday shall skip to wednesday.
Wednesday was oh so bloody fun!
Haha.Had pe and stuff then during chapel shebe nearly fell off the chair.
Recess was so embarrasing can?
Hahahahahaha.
Oh my god!!Shenna!!!hahahaha.I shant mention it incase she* reads it!
Anyh,during scince was even better can?!
Shebe,santhosh,sucrose and came up with some crap!
Hahaha.Oh man hilarious.That mission aint completed yet.
And aft school shenna,santhiya and suk crashed my crib for the history project.
As usual it was a failure,as in we dint do the project and was crapping instead!
After that it started raining super heavily so me and shebe decided to go and get wet.As usual the other two dint want to come so me and shenna went to play in the playground when it was raining.So fun!!And we saw pl-lites!Yepp then went back santhosh and their socks went missing.WEIRD can?Haha had a great time.
Love you guys<<3's>

`Thursday.
Today was urmm..okay luh.
Nth much.Had d n t.
Quite boring i think?!
Cant rm a dam thing!