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`Hmmmm..

Hello wello(:
Hmm.. lets see this week was pretty amazing,it was like sitting in a roller coaster!
So yeah had ups and downs.

Tuesday just sucked badly like totally la.
Don't really want to think about it.
Clique outing that we're suppose to have got cancelled by me):
Well two reasons one was my high fever and second reason depression,well not exactly but yeah was upset.
And let me tell you SWL and SM are the best.They are so sweet.I was so worried that they would be upset because I'm not going and obviously they would not go cause heyong is also not responding to phone,think she's in chalet,anyhoos,they were awesome.Love ya my two sexaye ladies<3's

I should have just gone out on Wednesday without my parent permission la,i mean i was alone at home and had absolutely nothing to do from 10 in the morning till 6 in the evening.
But when i come to think of it i wonder how would i sneak off.I mean i cant even stand up.Because of the fever my head feels so heavy.And my cough makes i feel like i'm gonna cough out blood or my lungs hey i know it sound stupid but it ain't la,being sick is a pain.

Thursday...
Remember i said i was upset it was something to do with my family so i was dreading Thursday so so much but it was completely opposite from what i thought.Hah funny.
Morning was reading book,lately i have been reading.In these 5 days i read 8 books already.YAY(:
Then after lunch-ing went temple then came back to watch 'Thamirabrani',a Tamil film.Was okay.Loved the song.
Yeah after the movie they played some songs then they put the song "new york"
Man,poor Matt she became so sad.
Haish.

So today is Friday.One week of the school holidays are over already.
I'm still recovering so got not much activities to do/:
Ah its okay all my activities start only from Saturday so yeah.
I'm worried for someone now.Hopefully she's doing fine there,cant really seem to figure her out.

If you read this someone,take care and as said to you on Sunday no matter how strange things between us seem or no matter how far we seem to be i will always be there for you.Take CO and love ya(:

`Sad kid):

SHOBI IS DAMN SAD NOW):
Ah staying at home is damn peaceful but when its quiet and i got nothing to do i will start thinking,thinking for ages.I used to love it now i detest the feeling.
Each time when i sit and think i become so emo):
I'm losing it.
I have got to do so much of stuff but i ain't doing a thing.
I'm just sitting here all numb and feeling dumb.
And the only reason is you*
Argh.
I hate you so so much.

That's it la,I'm done and over with you.
I care hell more than you do,wait you don't even care.
I tried okay,i tried to my maximum.
I admit the first time it was my fault for not talking properly,dude do you know in what kind of position i was in?
Thats why i dint talk much,i needed time man.Why cant you understand.
Well I've decided la i have tried and there ain't gonna be more oppatunaties.
You don't care,fine be it.
Its your fucking lost bitch cause you will never get a friend like me who cares so much about you.

Hmm..feel kinda relieved now.
Having slight fever:/
Hate the weather man.
I got to start planning for the sleep over and stuff.

Think of you every second.I can't get nothing done

`Bleahs.

Heyyy.
Was supposed to blog about somethings on my previous post but was too angry.

Anyways clique bought me a cake on Wednesday to celebrate my birthday earlier!Cause SWL would be in Malaysia,Heyong in some chalet and SM I'm not sure.
So yeah.Thanks guys<<33's

Meet the parents on Friday went smoothly especially Ms W.She said all good stuff(:
Thanks Ms.W for saving me.
Yeah Mrs.S wasn't in class so mummy went back to work.Then Mrs.S called her.
She said good stuff too.No complains((:

I didn't really do much on Saturday was sooo boring la.
Watched high school musical(:
Yeah,then practiced violin and went to bed.
Boring eh?

Sunday,I went for violin.
Mr.G was in a good mood.
But he told me to practice one particular note 500 times)):
Came home was suppose top have tuition but got cancelled(:
Please there's is nothing to study then my mother insists on having tuition.According to her i got one more lesson left so she say might as well finish then can pay her.
But she couldn't make it.Actually i don't mind having tuition.She's damn fun.
So lunch-ed with my fly.
Then went shopping with my mum.
Ended up buying so much of clothings.Haha.
So thats about it.
Off to go and watch GOAL(:

Thanks Matt for helping me change the blogskin and everything((:

`Unappreciated.

School was awesome la.
Laugh,laugh,laugh and more LAUGHS!!
Macs-ed at heartland with SWL and SM.
Heyong couldn't come due to some choir thing):
Was damn happy till...i went home.

Fuck everything can.
My mother called and started scolding me for coming back so late.
Like wtf.
We only left school at 2.50 and left macs at 3.20 because SWL had to rush off for ballet.
Its like so lil' time spent and they make such big fuss.
i know i ain't the best kid yet i don't think i deserve all these biasness and shit.
They are just so frigging bias la anything also Matt this,Matt that.$@%#%%.
AH...as said i gave up on life la.I don't really see the point of living but just living for the sake of living.

My sugar sorry couldn't reply your text batt suddenly went flat.
I miss you like fuck too.
Eh i want to see you now.PLEASE.
You are the only thing that will make me smile now.I'm so fucking annoyed with my whole life now...Hopefully you will be online.Send me offline msg if you are online and I'm not.
Love ya<<33's *bear hug*

Once again gayu thanks for letting me vent my anger.
Love ya:)

And my that friend* i miss you:)

`RAHH

School was good.
Tampiness-ed with Mdm Z and heyong.
Mdm Z drove Heyong and me there,had some briefing.
Hmmmm...now I'm kinda worried about the sleepover.ARGH!
Came back and no one was at home.
Guess what i did?
I watched saravana the movie again for the like don't know how many times.Hehe

Anyhoos,ILY GAYU:)
She made my day,okay more like evening.

Conversation between Gayu and me:
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
my birthday coming
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
but i'm nt looking forward
♥ Gayu says:
why not ?
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
coz shobi wishes that she was not born at all
♥ Gayu says:
well, gayu really thanks god for letting shobi be born as shes uber glad to have her in her life
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
omfg
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
you damn it nice can
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
ILY LA
♥ Gayu says:
Haha u noe u brighten up my day?
♥ Gayu says:
every time i see u, u wave and smile and i feel like so happy la. no matter whats bothering me

Thanks gayu really needed that to make my day.
Though i go around happily telling people my birthday is coming.I'm not even excited or happy.Feel so numb.
Because it keeps on reminding me of some stuff or someone.So yeah:(

You don't care about me do you?Thanks for acting and hurting me..

`...

Heyy.
School was fine,it was good till Tamil la.
I think S is rather bias and i feel some people are so goddamn dishonest la,don't deserve marks still get it.
Wadever if they thinks it helps then good for you because in O's they don't just get marks like that its your disadvantage.Not mine.BITCH.
Yeah S left earlier due to some work,not sure though.
Went to the toilet and saw someone la.
Mood plunged,damn.
I'm not harping on the past its just difficult like aiya everytime walking past and the person so contradicting and for some fucking reason it hurts you deeply.Don't wish to elaborate when she herself don't care about me,not even 1/4 of how much i do,i can't do a damn thing can i?
IT lesson was rather funny,sitting with shenna is damn it hilarious.Got sudden effects,mouse can drop and the screen can tilt.Hilarious.
Then had to go for some stupid photo thingy.

I just realised that i have been telling everyone my birthday is coming happily.
But deep down only god knows whether i'm really happy.Really wished i wasn't even born.
It would be so peaceful for everyone.And that is for sure right happy pill,___,___ and ___?

Back has been hurting for such a long time.I give up on my life already la.Damn every fucking shit thats going on.


To you*:
Do you really care for me?
Have you really cared for me?
Once it was a fact now that you cared now its just a hope.
You are hurting me so so much.
Bleeding on the inside crying on the out.
Remember the promise you made?
Saying that you would take care of me till you leave the school.
Hah.Makes me laugh.
Just be honest wont you?
It will be less painful in that way for me,tell me whether you really cared ofr me and you have and will treasure the frenship.
Maybe SWL was correct,i forgive people easily because no matter what horrid stuff they do i forgive them.
And its the same here.
Haish.
I wanna be less forgiving in fact i want to be a stone hearted asshole.


It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real

`Wednesday.

Hello.
Today was rather....
Got back math results:)
Totally didn't expect to pass.Got 30 for the paper.Yay.
Anyway Shenna and Santhiya CHEER UP.
Heck those insensitive ones,we three can do it!
Shenna,I feel so grossed by___ and ___.Haha.
Eh cant wait for the sleepover man,i got like 3 days and 2 nights to tell you about ahems and other stuff:))Hehe.

Came back and no one is at home.
Parents brought Matt to TTSH.
Poor Matt,shall pray for that idiot to get well.Love ya.
Chatting with Santhiya now.OMG so hilarious can i'm at home alone and she making me laugh till can cry.Haha.
And yes santhiya i'm a sweet lil'kid:))

Suddenly i feel like i am drifting away from sm:(

SUGAR!Lets meet up soon<<33's

`I hate you.

Just posted like 15 minutes,went online.
SHE*was online.
Im breaking down badly.
I hate you.
Just shut up la.Your actions clearly shows you dont want me anymore.Fine la be that way.AND I SWEAR I WILL BE OUT OF YOUR LIFE.

Now even Matt is showing me attitude like fuck even though i just served her and stuff.
Like ever since when i get appreciated for all the things i have done.Becasue if everyone has they wont be hurting me so so much.

Conversation between me and Gayu:
♥ Gayu says:
okay okay. hey little one. promise me smthng?
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
?
♥ Gayu says:
never trust anyone 100%
♥ Gayu says:
i dun wanna see u get ure hopes up all over again and then get hurt

Thanks gayu for cheering me up:) But no matter how hard i try to save a piece of myself i end up getting hurt very badly:(Haish.

SUGAR!IMY.And thanks for cheering me up too:)Love ya and call me again at night<<33's.

`:))

EXAMS ARE OVER!!
Heyyy.
Haven't been updating because of all the tests and studying to do.
Though common tests are over i don't feel as happy as i should.Hmm..
Anyway papers were rather okay except for math.As usual i screwed it:((
Went over to sm's place after school.
Swimmed with Shenna:)Had loads of fun.Haha.
Eh shenna i am MACHO!!Hehe.
Okay..school was rather boring..
Poor matt is sick.I'm such a good sister can?Came home and served her lunch in bed.Aint i sweet?!Hehe.
Have some uploading of pictures to do when Shenna and Heyong came over to my crib:)
Ah..feeling tired i shall do it some other time.
Yay the weather's fine.Will be going to jog at about eight plus.

To sugar:
ILY my sugar.
Lets meet up soon okay?
I really really miss you luh and i'm not fibbing.Just cause i never chat with you when you came online doesn't mean i don't love you!STUPID i was busy!!
ILY ILY.
Take care and go and see the doctor!!

I hate you,you liar.

`Thursday:))

School was indeed fun actually more of after school!
Ps-ed with shenna to just hang out and find heyong's gift.
At serangoon station saw __ and __!
Wanted to spy on them but nvm.
So headed off to ps,shopped and went LJS to eat.
I saw s!Haha.I miss him.Hope to see him soon(Tc my cousin brother)
Sat there for about nearly two hours eating and talking.
Wow,come to think about it,its been gazillion years since me and shenna talked about alot of stuff you know.Haha
Had fun man.
I want to go out with shenna like that more often.
Ah will be going ps with her on Monday:))
Thanks dearie for today had a good time:)
ILY<<33's