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`First week of school(:

Hello earthlings.
This is gonna be a long post(i think) cause i will be blogging about the whole week.

[Monday]
First day of school.
So had a really longg assembly.
Then had contact time.
Had English after that,haha i got praised by LTL.
So got dismissed early with SM while the rest were getting scolded.
And i swear i cant remember anything else.
Oh and Heyong gave me my belated birthday gift.Thank you(:
Mum had to rush to bring P to hospital at night so me and Matt was at home alone.
Had the occasional fight with Matt and ended up having head injury):

[Tuesday]
Oh no,i cant really remeber anything at all.
Just that Mdm C is letting us sit with anyone so i am sitting with SWL.
And thank you SM for my belated birthday gift(:

[Thursay]
Skipped to Thursday cause i don't remember anything that happened on Wednesday.
Oh Gayu gave me my bleated birthday gift on Wednesday so Thank you(:
Finally,i have someone to attend my CCA with!
Cassandra!!!
MIT absolutely slack and with Cassandra around=major fun((:
Cassandra my MIT/CCA partner ILY(:

[Friday]
Had the walk-a-jog yesterday.
Took part in the competitor's event when i have back injury-.-
Well the school did not give us much of a choice.
Came home and had to face my parents stupid ridiculous questions.
Man was i upset with alot of stuff yesterday,really was.
Had a longggg talk with sugar we both were practically shouting out our problems to each other.
Feels damn nice to let all your problems out.
And i realized that i am living for absolutely no one but myself so I'm not gonna give a fuck about people's opinions.
As long shobi ain't doing nothing wrong i don't hafta be guilty or sad to whatever shit the assholes have to say.

Anyhoos i think i got back a long lost friendship,actually two friendship(:
I'm so happy bout that and I'm not gonna bother if anyone dislikes the person I'm talking to.
Cause i just shut up though i dislike some people right so too bad if you dislike my friends(:
I need to make myself free and available for these people:
-Pauline(I miss her loads)
-Gayu(Owes me a treat!)
-Sivvy(Owes me treat and a birthday gift)
-SWL(Owes me treat and a birthday gift)
-Azu(Just outing)
-Happy pill(Just outing)
-Sugar(Just outing)

`Mixed emotions/:

Yo people this is gonna be a special post for my sweetheart PAULINE(:
PP i love you so much.
I'm so sorry i wanted to blog about you long ago but your beloved son didnt allow me to use the damn computer.
Anyhoos,Pauline i hope you're doing fine.
I swear after hearing about some stuff on the 7th of june i cried alot.
And i felt weird i have never cried for anyone like this.
I really want to be there for you though now we both are like in different planet i still want to be there for you like how you were always there for me last year.
I still can remember last year when i had a fight with a certain person and when i was really breaking down and losing it the assurance you gave me...man i thank god for blessing me with a special loving friend like you.
Stay strong pauline and remember that i'm only a call away.
Love you forever my sweetheart(:
Outing soon(:

Thats about it for my special post.
Changed the blogskin,credits to MATT.Love the skin.
I don't want school to re-open.
I don't want to face a bitch you know.
Hmph and i really miss sugar.
Ahh going out with mummy now to do some shopping(:
Hafta finish up my homework when i come back cause i will be going out tomorrow again,to buy stupid soccer boots for my sister.
Tomorrow is the last day of the hols and it reminds me of the last day of March hols.
And thats when i saw AHEMS):
Time really flys.
Haish.

Damn i really miss last year.
I want last year to come back.
Though there were alot of bitter moments i always knew i had friends there for me now...i really dunno)):

Its like you got some kind of hold on me...

`BOOHOO(:

HELLO(:
Daddy's back.
Yayness.
Finally i missed him so so much.
Mum says that we will be cruising this December.
Fasterr December come.
I dont want to go back to school.
Now that school's re-opening i cant watch the OC.
Bleahs.

Mum took a day off from work on Wednesday for my dental appointment.
The doc has given a referral letter and my mum has made an appointment already.
Mum say it will take time about a few months time.
Hmph fasterr sia.
Dad say most prob he wants to get my braces done with a private doc,according to him its more convenient?!
Wadevs i just want it done(:

Argh cramps go away,shobi don't want you!
Haha,okay nevermind.
Nothing else to say except that i got loads of stuff to do and settle.

Why are you so selfish?
You know that we are drifting apart yet you remain as thou it means nothing to you.
Fine if you dont care why must i?
Each time something happens between us you blame me and make me feel as if its my mistake.
Then you act as if you're all wounded up but deep down i know you're not.
I was so foolish not to see you through now i have so peace.
I'm not gonna call you,text you,chat nor send you offline msgs till you do.
Cause i'm sick n tired of being the one to always do that.
I really hope you prove me wrong and that you care about this friendship as much as i do.
Till then.

`Smile(:

Hey.
Havent been blogging for about a week already.

Monday was my birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHOBI(:
Temple-ed in the morning.
Headed to Swenson's with my family went to to the branch which is at Changi Airport.
After taking our lunch bought my birthday cake from Swenson's and left.
Cut cake and went shopping.
Had loads of fun.
Will upload some pictures when i feel like it!
Thank you peeps for all the wishes and gifts.

Tuesday..Hmm i can't remember.
Omg i cant really remember what i did for the rest of the week.
Just that i went out alot.
With family and cousins.

Dad left to India for some work thingum:/
Man i really miss him so so much.
Hopefully that he will have a safe and a pleasant trip.

Yesterday had the sleepover with SWL.
Went temple with her and mum then took lunch at home did some filming.
After that we started playing the game of Life and Monopoly.
Hilarious sia,laugh until stomach so pain(:
Went heartland with SWL to get some stuff.
Came back dinner-ed and finished up the filming.
Then went to bed.
I woke up at 7.10,bathe and ready to leave to Nanyang Poly for some filming course and the pigg just woke up!!
Overall had fun with that pig.
Love ya pig((:

`Jerks.

Man I'm like damn it pist with two fucking people.
When they were att,they were nice to me and now that they are not they are so bloody annoying and they are pissing me off like shit.
One is blaming me for every fuck that has happened,ungrateful sia didn't i stay up the night to console her?
The other one doesn't even talk to me properly and when i try to talk to her and explain i end up getting hurt.
Its their relationship,their problem..i don't even think they are as hurt as i am.
I'm not gonna talk to both.
#@$@#$!$$%#@!$%

Yesterday went shopping with mummy and Matt at compass.
Mum was looking at some shoes,and handbags.
The other one as usual looking at stupid stuff.
OMFG.I saw this so so fucking cute malay baby.
He/she is so cuteeee.
Awww so adorable.[Got reminded of someone]
Okay back to shopping saw this really pretty top,really loved it but it was too big.
Boo..and that was the smallest.
Damn oh and SWL i saw the present that i wanted.
You're right its forty bucks))):
But so niceeeeee i want.
Bought a pretty top and ate at BK.
SWL and SM i sat at the same place that we ate at!
Came back and watched Best of sweet sixteen.
Bow Wow is hottt.Haha.

Man,i really miss SWL.
Glad things got sorted,stupid me.
Heard from SM that SWL is sick)):
Take care shenna.
Rmb ystd the text?
SHENNA <3 SHOBI and SHOBI <3 SHENNA
I want to talk to you okay calling you now hopefully you answer!
Nope you didn't answer.
Sleeping?Dont know call me if you are free.

I MIGHT BE GOING M'SIA.YAYNESS(((:

`Haish.

My back is in a horrible condition.
Atleast last time i still could run and stuff now totally cant)):
I cant even touch my backbone.
Stupid back is causing external pain stupid mind and problems giving me internal pain.

I'm crying now.
Was chatting with someone,not exactly chatting that person wasn't even talking.
So i asked what's up and she said I'm scared that i may say anything wrong to make you angry or smth.
I'm already feeling so fuck-ed up because i think things between S and me is going so fucking shit and the letter has no reply.
Now,oh man am i such a fucker?
Why is everyone making me feel like such a complete horrible bitch?
One say i selfish,another say i backstabber now this.
Fuck it la.
I know deep down i have tried my best and know that i don't deserve all the names such as selfishso why cant anyone understand shobi?

`Relieved.

Hello.
Went back to school yst for the sleepover thingum.
Omg our plans are clashing badly.I thought of an idea but not sure if that's gonna work out.
Then went for lunch.
Aiyo it was screwed la,headed to ps first to food court to makan la.
All the places were crowded:/
Then went to j8,ate pasta.
Was rushing like mad cause SWL and SM had trng.

So yeah after that met up with sugar for awhile at junction.
That moron is still grounded.
Had a good time.
Sugar accompanied me int the bus((:
Had a long long talk with her,i feel so alive now.
Thanks my lovely.

After talking to her i realized i should take things slow.
I shouldn't bother myself with other people's problems cause after that i get so worked up.
So instead of trying to save all those fucked up people's friendship I'm gonna stop.
Cause it makes no sense why must i care so so much when i damn hell did nothing.
So stop all those sms-ing and offline msg's.
They wanna talk let them if not please,fuck off.

BUT i will continue sms-ing S cause in this case its not anyone's fault,actually i don't really no know what it is but not to frequent cause we need time to heal all our wounds right S?
All i know is i miss her):
Wrote her a letter hopefully things will be back to normal because i still can feel the tension around us.
If you read this S i wanna let you know this:ILY(:

I gotta settle alot of stuff now.
My plans are all clashing badly with each other and damn hell phone is not with me now.
Argh.


AHEMS WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?

`Hurt.

I feel so hopeless,
I feel so lost,
I feel so used and dumped.
I feel like my heart is broken into gazillion pieces.
Haish.

Why is everyone treating me like this ah god?
It's like all of a sudden you seem to be the most important person to someone and the next the person completely ignores you and starts calling someone else the way the person treated you before.
I feel so torn and broken.
Have been crying so much till there's no more tears.
Went running ystd,when i haven't even recovered,smart eh?
Wished i had died in that spot,wont the world be rejoicing.
Hell yes it would.
I just couldn't take it so i did something really stupid to myself.
Actually i dot think its stupid,well...aiya no one would understand and i don't want anyone to bother(like anyone would).
Debating if i should go to school tomorrow or not.
Aiya..i'm afraid i just can't stand anymore heartbreaks i wont be able to take it.
Its obvious you people don't want me in your lives so yes,i'm officially stepping out of it.
Be happy folks without me in your lives.
Peace.

`Why?














You* said you said it out of spite,
You said you have been treated unfair,
What about me?
Look,she* texts me often because she's very free
and i know you are not that's why sometimes things like "how are you" and "good morning dear"
is sent to you when i sent to her.
I only did that cause we hardly talk,i really miss you and was wondering how were you,
Is that a mistake?
And is that called a selfish creep?
After being with you for so long do you think i was acting towards you?
And that i gain happiness when you are feeling blue?
Puh-lease.
It breaks my heart to know that you think I'm using you.
Is that why i always cared for you and tried my level best to cheer you up or send you so many text?
And if i was just using you tell me would i bother opening up to you,trusting you and telling some of my problems.
I did all that because i care for you and thinking that we were friends.
Is that all wrong?
I truly understand how you feel because i have gone through it all.
You know it very well,a supposedly brother,2 good friends and a SIL,
whom made the same promise and now you.
Imagine how i feel not just this is not my only problem but others too.
I don't know how to emphasize to you that you DAMN HELL mean alot and alot to me.
Please don't break the promise like the rest cause cause you mean tons to me....