My world is filled with cheer and you.

♥

Thursday, November 15, 2007

4:04 AM

`Warning:Vulgar and an angry post ahead.

Minutes ago only i finished blogging a super long and sad post.
I published it but changed my mind and save it into my drafts.
Whats e bloody point?I blogged saying how upset i am cause this hols,i feel so chucked and unwanted its like all my loved ones seem to have their own friends and stuff.
Its like so aiya forget it sia.
Only after publishing it i realized that there ain't any point.Only fight will arise and Shobi will feel worse.
FUCK IT SIAAAAAAAAAAAA.
I'm bloody sick and fucking tired of feeling like this.

GOD!Cant i get a break from all these?
Why is it one after another?
Why is everyone doing this?
And god why must i love all the people around me from family to friends,why why why must i love them?
I feel so unwanted both by my family and friends so what am doing here god?
It feels so worthless and pointless of me living.
I have tried and tried my best to please everyone around me but i cant god that just ain't me.
I am not pretender or a fake.
And also i try try to be there for every one but i do have my own stuff too right god?
And when i just cant console them i am the bad person.WTF.
But the same bunch who come to me for advices don't even care for me and neither do they console me.Fuck heads.
My very own goddamn it sister labeled me as the worlds most horrid sister just cause i didn't want to listen to her.Like wth.
God you know very well why i don't want to listen and i don't hafta continue cause you know i believe you are the only one who understand what i feel.

AHHHHHHHH i am sick and tired and am extremely narked at being ignored.
#!@#$#$%$%^%&^$#$%^&%$#$%#$%^&%#@#!@#!@#!#!#$$#%.
Damn it fine the world doesn't need me right?
I am cancelling all the dates that i have and GAYU mummy i am sorry,really am but it seems like i am not wanted so yeah.Same goes to clique, ___,____ and ____.
And yeah i am switching off my phone till 2007 ends.
Whats the point its not like anyone bothers bout Shobi.
Neither am i going to blog for awhile.
PEACE.

♥

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

8:58 PM

`Happy Deepavali(:

Hello my dear readers,Shobi is extremely sorry that she hasn't been blogging.
Ahhh blogger is so boring and i have no time and when i have time i got no mood.
Anyways i am so relieved that i have finished the dedications for my clique cause Heyong was making me feel guilty though i have one general one to do,will do that soon.

Anyhoos Deeps this year was good,awesome compared to last year but could have been better though.
Slept only at 3am on the eve of deeps and woke up at 7am.(Only 4 hrs of sleep!)
Did the usual stuff(Oil bath,prayers etc..)
Matt's friends came over in the noon and left at about 5 and we,as in the family,left to the oldies place.
Home-d and Dad's friends came over.
Was 11pm when the last visitor left.
Man was i drained stupid Matt when to sleep at ten something cause she had school next day.Tsktsk.What a lame excuse.
But I'm fine with it had fun with N and P.They are so cuteeeee.Esp N<<33's

2nd day

Well both Mum and Sis was not at home,Mum went to work and Sis school.
So had no visitors neither did we go for any visiting):
Mum's brother(Uncle) came over in the evening and so did my Dad's friend.
That was about it.

3rd day
Did visiting.Most of the visiting that were done were my mum's side.
We went to my dad's friend's house and "granddaddy's" house first.
Then the rest were mum's side.
Yay!I saw BEN<<333333's.
ZOMG he looks so so adorable.But sadly __ wasn't there.BOOOOO)):
Haha.
And the very evening my aunt(mum's sis) including Ben came over(:

4th day
Was rather boring cause we did visiting on dad's side!
Haha.
So shan't elaborate.

Thats about it.
It may seem boring to read but it was fun la.
Sister's PL clique is coming over today(:I'm happy cause Pauline is coming too!!
Yayness.
Aite thats bout it.
Oh wait one final thing HAPPY DEEPS TO ALL MY MAKALS!!
Zomg sounds so A-fied.Haha.
Till next time(:

♥

Friday, November 02, 2007

2:58 AM

`Dedications((:

Aloha.
Omg loads of crazy things has happened since the last post.
Argh Shobi doesn't want to think bout it.
Now for the sake of the people around me i will wear a mask,put up an act.A happy one(:
I really don't mind doing it,especially if the price is losing my loved ones or having arguments.
Okay now I'm going to do a special post to my clique a.k.a WW family.
Will start of according to the WW family number and also um obvious right the first one?!Haha.

SHENNA<<33's

My dearest love i really love you loads.
Thank you for always walking me home.
Thank you for always listening to my shit.
Thank you for being the lovely partner of mine.
Thank you for being my secret affair.(Date soon!)
Thank you for always being there for me no matter what.
Whenever i needed a shoulder to lean,you were there.
When i needed someone to make me laugh you will make me laugh.
So thank you.
Recently there has been some shitty misunderstandings between us ad that doesn't matter we both were fucked up.
But what is important to me is that we should go back to how we used to be.
And more importantly i want you to know that i am there for you,really am.
You can call on me whether day or night i will always be there(:
Haha.
Take care love especially of your ankle.
LOVE YOU A MILL.

HEY

ONG<<33's

First of Heyong i want to apologize for taking such a long time for this post.
I really had no time,with deeps coming and blogger taking such a long time to upload the pictures.
So i am sorry.

Thank you Heyong for always making me laugh constantly in school cause of your jokes,comments,stupidity,clumsiness etc..
Thank you Heyong for always being there if someone wanted to find me and stuff.
And thank you so so much for being there for me that day,listening to my sad story and being there on the phone with me when i cried(:

In conclusion Shobi is glad that she has a friend like you and though we may not be in the same class next year i really hope that we will remain as friends and still be in the clique(:ILYYYYYYY HEYONG(:

VANI<<

33's

Sorry SM i got no other pictures of you.
So sorry.
Anyways Vani thanks for all those long phone calls we used to have last hol.
Thanks Vani for those encouraging text messages that you sent to me whenever i felt demoralized.
Thanks Vani for always listening t my H.A.G's nonsense.LOL.
Anyways SM though this year there seemed to be so so much of space between us and i really hope that this holiday we will be back to how we used to be, those text messages and phone calls.You will always be my SM and hopefully I will always be your lovely manager(:Take care and have a safe and enjoyable trip to India.LOVES LOVES.