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Thursday, November 15, 2007
4:04 AM
`Warning:Vulgar and an angry post ahead.
Minutes ago only i finished blogging a super long and sad post.I published it but changed my mind and save it into my drafts.Whats e bloody point?I blogged saying how upset i am cause this hols,i feel so chucked and unwanted its like all my loved ones seem to have their own friends and stuff.Its like so aiya forget it sia.Only after publishing it i realized that there ain't any point.Only fight will arise and Shobi will feel worse.FUCK IT SIAAAAAAAAAAAA.I'm bloody sick and fucking tired of feeling like this.GOD!Cant i get a break from all these?Why is it one after another?Why is everyone doing this?And god why must i love all the people around me from family to friends,why why why must i love them?I feel so unwanted both by my family and friends so what am doing here god?It feels so worthless and pointless of me living.I have tried and tried my best to please everyone around me but i cant god that just ain't me.I am not pretender or a fake.And also i try try to be there for every one but i do have my own stuff too right god?And when i just cant console them i am the bad person.WTF.But the same bunch who come to me for advices don't even care for me and neither do they console me.Fuck heads.My very own goddamn it sister labeled me as the worlds most horrid sister just cause i didn't want to listen to her.Like wth.God you know very well why i don't want to listen and i don't hafta continue cause you know i believe you are the only one who understand what i feel.AHHHHHHHH i am sick and tired and am extremely narked at being ignored.#!@#$#$%$%^%&^$#$%^&%$#$%#$%^&%#@#!@#!@#!#!#$$#%.Damn it fine the world doesn't need me right?I am cancelling all the dates that i have and GAYU mummy i am sorry,really am but it seems like i am not wanted so yeah.Same goes to clique, ___,____ and ____.And yeah i am switching off my phone till 2007 ends.Whats the point its not like anyone bothers bout Shobi.Neither am i going to blog for awhile.PEACE.
