life is short so live it to the fullest

2008-02-29T00:55:00.000-08:00

MOVED(:

2007-12-26T18:21:00.000-08:00

`Rarr(:

Has been ages since i updated so decided to update today(:
Lets see i cant really remember everything so i will blog bout those that i rmb.

I cant remember the date but one of the Sunday's before the 17th i went shopping with my family.
Headed to peninsular(spelling)first to get my sister's skinny's and dad's soccer jersey.Zomg i saw someone.OMG.I cant really mention it here!Lg knows bout it and she's following me to peninsular soon to find him!Hahahaha. Aite back to shopping so left the place and headed to N square.I don't like the N square apparently my mum wanted to buy some stuff from there so dragged ourselves there.Ate at Han's and home-ed.

Monday(17th Dec)
Town-ed with Mum and sister.
Got the things that we wanted.Lunch-ed.Headed to OG to get somethings for Mum's friends and then went to A.H to visit my Grandfather.

Saturday(22nd Dec)
Town-ed again but with Brother's fly and just Matt and Me.
Watched the flick Alvin and the chipmunks.
Zomg they are so frigging cute.Especially Theodore!
Omg so cute.Aite i should stop.haha.
After the flick went shopping for V cause her birthday was on the 24th.Bought her a birthday Barbie(:
I know I'm sweet!Hehe.

Sunday(23rd Dec)
Picnic at East Coast with loves.
Had extreme fun.
Am too lazy so gonna leave out the details but had an awesome time 'cept it rained!#!@#!@#$

Thats bout all i can rmb.
This hols i went shopping alot.Really till I'm kinda sick of it alr.
Haha.Okay I'm outta here.

2007-12-10T19:58:00.000-08:00

`Boohoo!

To you*
You're not the only one aite?
IMY too,more than you actually.
You think its easy for me to forget everything?
From late night calls,long text msgs to cheer me up when i was down and needed someone to the ice-cream fetish that we had.
Each time i apply gloss your memory kicks in.
Each time i see a H.A.G your memory kicks in.
I miss you too but its not easy,you just forgot everything w had and just listened to something that someone said without even asking me if it was true.
I called you,talked to you,cried to you not to believe those shit but you chose to.Now..
Just gimme time i need to think.

To you*
I can't believe it.
I seriously cant.
I never once expected you,you of all people to hurt me this badly.
What do i look to you?A bloody fool,a bloody fucking fool don't i?
We both have gone in our own ways,there's a HUGE distance between us.
Its a fact i know that but i always thought it will get better.
I love you and i respect the friendship that's why i text you often.
And i don't even get a reply to that so i assumed you're busy or smth till i heard that that day while i was on the phone with her.
So you could text her but cant even reply my msgs?
Its rather hurting you know,it comes to show how much you respect the friendship and me.
Know what just forget it okay.
Now you don't look back at the past right? The NEW ____.
You've got your own new friends now and so you don't bother bout me.
Fine la be that way but just rmb who was there for you all along and helped you through your confusions,sorrows etc.
According to SHOBI you're a LBR and shobi don't do LBR'S.
Peace.

Okay that two para above is only meant for two people so please don't come ask me who is it and stuff.
The second para is rather negative so don't anyhow assume that you're the person.Actually you will only feel guilty if one you are the person or two you have done something similar.Either ways I'm not gonna entertain you.
Wdeves I'm pist and tired so I'm outta here.

2007-12-04T17:47:00.000-08:00

`Bleahs.

HEYHEY(:
My sincere apologies to my dear readers for not updating my blog for such a long time!
Alright let me just quickly summarize what has been happening in my oh-so-screwed-up-life.

The last time i blogged was around deeps which was on the 8th of Nov so the week after deeps was spent visiting and visitors coming over to my crib.
On the 19th Nov bought school books and guess what it is still lying in my room untouched!Tsktsk.
That week was PK time so spent most of the time with daddy and uncle S cause dad was on MC and i felt bad cause he's sick and yet driving so decided to accompany him.So yeah but i still had loads of fun with both of them especially when uncle S treats me like a princess((:
On the 24th was PK(((:
Hehe.Mum and Matt didn't want to come so was just me and dad.
Was super happy spotted 3 of my ec's and sorted something out with a certain someone(:
Okay sorted isn't exactly the word things got better than the last time so Shobi's happy(:
Haha i think I'm the first earthling to actually feel happy and have fun on such an event.Okay maybe not the first earthling I'm sure other's do enjoy buy the reason vary(:
Okay so on the 26th was dad's op.
ZOMGGG!That was like a major heart attack for me.Was so terrified like duh!It was a major op what!
Thank god everything went smoothly and for the fabulous dinner i had with two lovelies and Matt on the OP day.They made me laugh so hard till i was tearing!
So after the op which was on Monday dad got discharged on Wednesday and from the very day forth there are visitors to my house.Hmm sad part is that i cant really go out cause dad still cant really move as in he can but he shouldn't till his next appointment with the docs.I don't mind sacrificing anything for daddy,i love him(:

Okay so thats bout it for wadever that has happened,actually there's more like shopping and outing etc.
But these are the only ones which i can remember the date!Hehee.

So for the upcoming weeks of my hols mum says that we may either take a short trip to M'sia with Ben's fly or chalet with them sweethearts and there's gonna be a picnic.(:
Hopefully both takes place(:
Thats bout it,i better start doing all my homework cause i if don't start and finish my holiday homework on time i cant go):

Hmmm holidays will be over soon and feel like i have not accomplished anything):
I dunno,maybe i want to o something drastic but i dunno what should i do?!
Haha.Lame sia Shobi.

Argh i really don't want to think bout next year,I'm dreading it.My class sucks,the subjects that i take sucks,Gayu mummy wont be in Pl next year and that sucks.
Argh SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.
Can i just go back to my secondary 1's life?I don't want to go to secondary 3!)':
HAIS.

And the hearts all over the world tonight.

2007-11-15T04:04:00.000-08:00

`Warning:Vulgar and an angry post ahead.

Minutes ago only i finished blogging a super long and sad post.
I published it but changed my mind and save it into my drafts.
Whats e bloody point?I blogged saying how upset i am cause this hols,i feel so chucked and unwanted its like all my loved ones seem to have their own friends and stuff.
Its like so aiya forget it sia.
Only after publishing it i realized that there ain't any point.Only fight will arise and Shobi will feel worse.
FUCK IT SIAAAAAAAAAAAA.
I'm bloody sick and fucking tired of feeling like this.

GOD!Cant i get a break from all these?
Why is it one after another?
Why is everyone doing this?
And god why must i love all the people around me from family to friends,why why why must i love them?
I feel so unwanted both by my family and friends so what am doing here god?
It feels so worthless and pointless of me living.
I have tried and tried my best to please everyone around me but i cant god that just ain't me.
I am not pretender or a fake.
And also i try try to be there for every one but i do have my own stuff too right god?
And when i just cant console them i am the bad person.WTF.
But the same bunch who come to me for advices don't even care for me and neither do they console me.Fuck heads.
My very own goddamn it sister labeled me as the worlds most horrid sister just cause i didn't want to listen to her.Like wth.
God you know very well why i don't want to listen and i don't hafta continue cause you know i believe you are the only one who understand what i feel.

AHHHHHHHH i am sick and tired and am extremely narked at being ignored.
#!@#$#$%$%^%&^$#$%^&%$#$%#$%^&%#@#!@#!@#!#!#$$#%.
Damn it fine the world doesn't need me right?
I am cancelling all the dates that i have and GAYU mummy i am sorry,really am but it seems like i am not wanted so yeah.Same goes to clique, ___,____ and ____.
And yeah i am switching off my phone till 2007 ends.
Whats the point its not like anyone bothers bout Shobi.
Neither am i going to blog for awhile.
PEACE.

2007-11-13T20:58:00.000-08:00

`Happy Deepavali(:

Hello my dear readers,Shobi is extremely sorry that she hasn't been blogging.
Ahhh blogger is so boring and i have no time and when i have time i got no mood.
Anyways i am so relieved that i have finished the dedications for my clique cause Heyong was making me feel guilty though i have one general one to do,will do that soon.

Anyhoos Deeps this year was good,awesome compared to last year but could have been better though.
Slept only at 3am on the eve of deeps and woke up at 7am.(Only 4 hrs of sleep!)
Did the usual stuff(Oil bath,prayers etc..)
Matt's friends came over in the noon and left at about 5 and we,as in the family,left to the oldies place.
Home-d and Dad's friends came over.
Was 11pm when the last visitor left.
Man was i drained stupid Matt when to sleep at ten something cause she had school next day.Tsktsk.What a lame excuse.
But I'm fine with it had fun with N and P.They are so cuteeeee.Esp N<<33's

2nd day

Well both Mum and Sis was not at home,Mum went to work and Sis school.
So had no visitors neither did we go for any visiting):
Mum's brother(Uncle) came over in the evening and so did my Dad's friend.
That was about it.

3rd day
Did visiting.Most of the visiting that were done were my mum's side.
We went to my dad's friend's house and "granddaddy's" house first.
Then the rest were mum's side.
Yay!I saw BEN<<333333's.
ZOMG he looks so so adorable.But sadly __ wasn't there.BOOOOO)):
Haha.
And the very evening my aunt(mum's sis) including Ben came over(:

4th day
Was rather boring cause we did visiting on dad's side!
Haha.
So shan't elaborate.

Thats about it.
It may seem boring to read but it was fun la.
Sister's PL clique is coming over today(:I'm happy cause Pauline is coming too!!
Yayness.
Aite thats bout it.
Oh wait one final thing HAPPY DEEPS TO ALL MY MAKALS!!
Zomg sounds so A-fied.Haha.
Till next time(:

2007-11-02T02:58:00.000-07:00

`Dedications((:

Aloha.
Omg loads of crazy things has happened since the last post.
Argh Shobi doesn't want to think bout it.
Now for the sake of the people around me i will wear a mask,put up an act.A happy one(:
I really don't mind doing it,especially if the price is losing my loved ones or having arguments.
Okay now I'm going to do a special post to my clique a.k.a WW family.
Will start of according to the WW family number and also um obvious right the first one?!Haha.

SHENNA<<33's

My dearest love i really love you loads.
Thank you for always walking me home.
Thank you for always listening to my shit.
Thank you for being the lovely partner of mine.
Thank you for being my secret affair.(Date soon!)
Thank you for always being there for me no matter what.
Whenever i needed a shoulder to lean,you were there.
When i needed someone to make me laugh you will make me laugh.
So thank you.
Recently there has been some shitty misunderstandings between us ad that doesn't matter we both were fucked up.
But what is important to me is that we should go back to how we used to be.
And more importantly i want you to know that i am there for you,really am.
You can call on me whether day or night i will always be there(:
Haha.
Take care love especially of your ankle.
LOVE YOU A MILL.

HEYONG<<33's

First of Heyong i want to apologize for taking such a long time for this post.
I really had no time,with deeps coming and blogger taking such a long time to upload the pictures.
So i am sorry.

Thank you Heyong for always making me laugh constantly in school cause of your jokes,comments,stupidity,clumsiness etc..
Thank you Heyong for always being there if someone wanted to find me and stuff.
And thank you so so much for being there for me that day,listening to my sad story and being there on the phone with me when i cried(:

In conclusion Shobi is glad that she has a friend like you and though we may not be in the same class next year i really hope that we will remain as friends and still be in the clique(:ILYYYYYYY HEYONG(:

VANI<<33's

Sorry SM i got no other pictures of you.
So sorry.
Anyways Vani thanks for all those long phone calls we used to have last hol.
Thanks Vani for those encouraging text messages that you sent to me whenever i felt demoralized.
Thanks Vani for always listening t my H.A.G's nonsense.LOL.
Anyways SM though this year there seemed to be so so much of space between us and i really hope that this holiday we will be back to how we used to be, those text messages and phone calls.You will always be my SM and hopefully I will always be your lovely manager(:Take care and have a safe and enjoyable trip to India.LOVES LOVES.

2007-10-29T06:19:00.000-07:00

`Fuck everything and everyone.

This post was suppose to be a happy one and a post filled with dedications to my loved ones.
I change my bloody mind now.
I am so fucked up.
Really am.
My parents just saw my report book and scolded me stupid etc..,i fought with someone whom i love dearly and my whole clique is appealing cept for me.
Actually i will be happy,really happy if they get to the class they desire but the fact that they already talked bout it among themselves before telling me makes me so sad.

I feel so loner now.
I am crying here and i feel like there's no shoulders to lean on and...
I just cant continue this post.
If i break shenna's promise i am sorry.Thats bout it.

2007-10-24T02:36:00.000-07:00

`Boredddd...

Hello my dear readers.
I have been online from 3 plus and still have not decided on what to blog.
All i can say is that life in school has been pretty fine and fun.
Especially yesterday.Yesterday was Tuesday and Tuesday means MOTHER TONGUE DAY(:
I tell you i was super sad and pist yesterday but thanks to A,D,K,R and S i felt better.
They made me laugh like crazy.
Omg i love them la,next year Tamil class is going to be a blast.But that is if we are all in the same Tamil class.Hopefully we are!

Hmmm today school was alright.
Christmas service this year was not so fun and high like last year):
Oh did i mention i have babies?!
Haha,my angel gave the water babies to me and i officially took them as my babies.
Yay(:

This post is so crap la.
I dont even know what to blog and am super bored.
Chatting with my girlfriend online.
And she's watching some lameass show so she's not chatting with me now):
Stupid cass!
But on the bright side she's going to give me a big balloon!
Say yay everyone!
Okay enough with this crap.
I will try to be less crap and less boring in the future post.
Till then BYE(:

2007-10-14T22:19:00.000-07:00

`Friday(:

Friday was founder's day and since we were suppose to report only at 3.15pm i met C,S and J for lunch at Vivo.
Lunch-ed at Thai then bought chocs from Candy Empire and headed to the playground.
Played like some small kiddos with them.
Had been a while since i laughed till like that(:
Thanks C,S and J(:
Reached school slightly late.
Sat with Cass and Shenna during the founder's day service.
Cass is funny(:And OMFG i love her hair.I just love it<<33's
Haha,was singing with them during the service.
Reached home at 7 plus,dinner-ed,watched Jodi and fell asleep(:

`Saturday(:
Went shopping with my family for Deeps.
Mum bought me two skinny jeans.
Wasn't interested to buy but ended up buying cause of mummy.
Hmmm i think i am not fit to wear skinny's la,i am so fat):
Went home shortly cause dad wasn't feeling too well so yeah.
Watched Jodi,omfg i felt like crying when i saw Simbu crying.So sad la.
On the other hand my family were rooting for B.
Argh,heck them la.Simbu was/is/and will be my love<3's

`Sunday(:
Had violin in the morning.
I didn't do anything cept for watching the telly.
Watched kk and V star.
Omg S is super hot in the movie(:
And for V star i really wanted Deva to win la.
But nevertheless am i happy that Ebi won instead of Dhinesh.
Ad omgggg Shabir performed(((:Awesome
Yogi B and N 's performance was mind blowing too!

Yepp thats bout it.

2007-10-11T03:22:00.000-07:00

`Wednesday((:

Wednesday was the best day of my entire life.
Not exactly BEST la but it was rather cool,smooth,nothing i repeat nothing went wrong and i had loads of fun(:
AWESOME!
Haha.
Actually the after school day was better.
2 reasons.
First,I went out to Vivo with Shenna,Vani and Wanleng.
WL and SM were not fun at all please,had a blast with shenna(:
Then came home and yeah,cleared up certain things with someone(:
And yes now she's officially back to being my brother<3's
No matter how far she may be she will always be my brother and i love her(:

`Thursday(:

Was pretty awesome excluding the two losers that got scolded form me.
Lame ass and i bet in them one is the one who tagged my blog.
LOSER(:
Anyway thanks clique and Dharsh and ex lg(:
Okay after school went to Vivo again.This time with Shenna and Heyong.
Had a blast except for the security guard.
@#@@$$%$#%$#%.
Aiya super lazy to blog more.
I'm outta her(:

2007-10-06T03:32:00.000-07:00

`Pist.

I'm super irritated now.
Too many thigs choking me already.
Thats why i only invited certain people to my blog.
So far invited 4 readers.Think i'm gonna open my blog to the author only which is obviously me.

I am feeling super fucked up.
I cant even think straight,cant blog straight.
So am gonna end this post with one last line to state what i am feeling now.

I FEEL LOST,EMPTY,LONELY,FUCKED-UP,IRRITATED THAT I ______.

2007-10-01T23:14:00.000-07:00

`Tuesday)':

AHHH today sucked la.
I'm still feeling emo,actually worse.
Shobi is very tempted to use the tool,penknife.
Haish.
Morning sucked as i didn't talk to anyone.
Then headed to UPTLC.Was okay la.
The guy spoke Tamil so fluently i want to speak like him!
Then went to Lil'India to makan.
Let me tell you that its super cool to go there with your friends.
I actually forgot all the stuff which had been bothering me and went high.Thanks to K,R,A etc.
Super nice,cute and sweet people.
Then after lunch we took a walk around Lil'India.
It was time to go back to school.Sucks.
Wanted to stay in school for awhile and tell SWL about stuff but it seems that she was busy with her track friends and SM didn't bother bout me.
So back to feeling sad and extra.
Felt that i was not needed so took my bag and left.
Might have been rude but it only seems that leaving was the right thing to do.
Ah fuck shit.
Feeling super sad,lonely and empty.
Don't even wish to go to school tom cause it will just be the same or worse.
@!#!@$%##@$%#$@%$@#%@#$@#!#!#!#@$#%%$%&%&$%@#$@#

To you*
I want you back in my life.
I want to be like how we used to.
Atleast when you were with me i had someone to talk to,cry to and laugh with.
Now without you i feel so lonely,part of me seems to be missing.
There are so many things at this point where i want to tell you.
I don't even know where to start from.
Hais but its too late to even start.
I will just like you to know that no matter where you may be you will always be in my prayers<3's

2007-09-29T04:51:00.000-07:00

`Funfair

After months and weeks of constant nagging and scoldings we received today was the day that we proved Ms.W that we ain't useless(:But i really gotta admitt the fact that without her or the constant nagging we wouldn't have been able to run the stall,so thanks Ms.W(:

Today was really crazy and my emotions took a roller coaster ride today.Great.

Let me elaborate.

Went super high with clique,seriously i love them<<33's

Then spent some time with Ash.That cute thing is so hilarious.

Never fails to make me laugh.

Then met Matt's friends.

Omg i felt so happy to see Jean again.Missed her so much.
She kinda made my day?!Haha.Love her.
Then played games with clique and yeah.
Then came emo-ness.
Haish.
Don't wanna elaborate just that kinda broke down.So fucking pai-seh.:/

Anyway a really big thanks to:
-Shenna(For consoling me and sitting by my side)
-Heyong and Vani(Asking me to cheer up)
-Sivvy(For all the hugs)
-Elizabeth(For the hug)
-Mrs tng(For consoling and making me laugh)

AND SORRY SHENNA,HEYONG AND VANI FOR DAMPENING YOUR MOODS ESP SHENNA AND VANI CAUSE YSTD I RUINED YOUR AFTERNOON YESTERDAY.SORRY.I'M A BITCH.

Yeah thats bout it.
I feel really choked up la.Like so many things bottled up.
And thanks all those who helped 2.3 to clean up the mess.Really appreciate it(:
Off to go watch jodi no.1(:Monkey cheers me up(:
BYE.

2007-09-24T03:40:00.000-07:00

`Smile(:

Hey,couldn't update the whole of last week.
Because my aunt passed away):
So had all the funeral rituals so yeah busy.
Had quite alot to blog but after listening to my present blog song,i seriously cant remember a damn thing.
The song just makes me smile(:
So will keep this post short.
OUT.

I despise that I adore you

2007-09-15T18:50:00.000-07:00

`Haish

Man i seriously hate the way that i am feeling.
Right now there's so many things that are bugging me.
Too many things that i don't even know where to start from or how to figure all of 'em,solve them so that i can clear my mind.

You know 'm seriously sick and tired of having to worry bout the same old issues,am sick and tired to be the loser who is always made use of people whom i thought were my loved ones and i am seriously sick and tired of seeing my hopes fall down each time.

Actually i don't really understand myself neither do i understand my feelings.
I SERIOUSLY hate,i repeat HATE bottling up all my feelings and put a smile on my face.
If i had a choice i would really love to runaway,being all ALONE to get all my feelings sorted,have a long peaceful nap then some nice spa,haha and then return back to this miserable place.

Man i'm seriosuly gonna create a LJ account.
I really need it.
I cant even blog here in peace,i cant express whatever i feel.
What is a blog anyway ah?An online journal and whats the point of blogging then when i cant even express myself?
And wheni wanna mention a certain someone in my blog i cant do that freely to and now that the school is checking all our blogs...haish.
So yes my point LJ account.
Soon shobi.

But for the time being all i can do is to lock myself up stare at the 4 walls and reflect/decide what do i really want in life.

Okay now for the normal stuff,school has been pretty okay.
Imma nice kid right Shenna?(:
I feel like going for jogging now,Shobi needs to lose weight like atleast 5kg before deeps.
Then another 2kg before christmas?!
Hmmm... so far dieting process is erms okay?!

Hmm thats it for this entry(:

2007-09-10T01:52:00.000-07:00

`HSM2(:

Haha finally after waiting for so long i watched HSM2(:
Nice nice.
Hmm nth much to blog 'bout.
Just that school was pretty slack.
Went to Changi Museum.Grr boring man.
Thats 'bout it.
Wow what a short post.

I love this line:I get my hopes up and I watch them fall everytime.
How realistic and true in Shobi's life.

2007-09-04T21:39:00.000-07:00

`Argh!

This is like so typical,just when i was having fun something shitty has to arise and dampen my mood.
Man why cant life be perfect?At least for a short period.
Haish.
Okay.Wadeves,Shobi is not gonna care about anything like this.
She's gonna move on with her plans and have fun i mean why must i be the one to sit at home all depressed and emo about people whom don't even give a damn about me and are having the time of their live.
So no worries Shobi.

Haha feel dumb.
The first para was something that i needed to get myself up and going.
Ahhs anyways Mum thinks I'm insane.
Cant blame her i mean was at home alone the whole day hence when i start to communicate with humans after such a long time i kinda get irritated easily and start snapping at them for no reason.(Oh and this happens to only family members SM,ystd night's incident had nth to do with that!)
And thanks to my dearest SM I'm sitting again at home all alone.
Well cant blame her la i was stupid to not confirm whether there was really gonna be clique outing before cancelling my other plans.
Hmm seems that dearest SWL is sick):
Get well soon my dearie/secret love<3's

Actually i wanted to blog about someone who pist me off and wanted to blog some emo para but thanks to the first para kinda got over it la
I mean why dwell on unpleasant stuff and end up making myself worse,as if I'm not already feeling bad.Tsk.

Okay.
Haha have been watching the Dhoom 2 movie like over and over again whenever i get the time.
Haha.
Oh and high school musical premieres on the 9th!
Yayness only 4 more days((:
Okay off to watch C 10028 or maybe Vallvan.
Haha,have watched that flick like dunno 30 times?!
Serious man.
But still kinda tear at the particular part.Its not exactly a scene where people can cry but dunno it kinda affects me and yeah its a only god-knows-why reason/secret(:

OMG what a weird post.
Its like a contradiction of emotions in each para.Haha oh well off to go watch i-dunno-what movie.
Have a good day folks(:

He's so good an he knows how to love me

2007-09-03T02:31:00.000-07:00

`You are the music in me(:

Hello.

Havent been blogging for a long time.

Hmmm..Shobi is a lazy kiddo(:

Haha and decided to blog more frequently now that its the holidays.

Last week of school was okay la.

Watched movies such as Take The Lead,Finding Nemo and Tom and Jerry(:

Played stress,received report book and celebrated Teacher's day.

Well yepp that was the highlights of the last week of school.

Kinda cool but fell ill on Thursday and i must say since then to now Shobi has completely lost appetite.

I hardly feel hungry though my stomach is empty.

Rather disturbing but i feel happy at the same time.

Well reason is rather obvious,losing weight it is.

Haha.

Ssshhh.

I know like a bunch who will kill me if i diet/:

But hey its not like on purpose right?

Ahhs wadeves enough with the diet crap.

Weekend were fine or should i say awesome?!

Hahahahaha.Thanks.

Shant elaborate,cause what i find amusing and nice may not be to others so shant bore my readers or what-so-ever.

I'm already happy with what i've got((:

Haha i bet everyone is lost.

Hahahaha.

Okay omg shobi please stop craping,

Okay one more thing and i will be off to dance/jump/scream around the house happily.

I just watched DHOOM 2.

And omfg its simply awesome.

Hrithik is the new love(:

I know i know this movie aint new.. SO WHAT?

Its awesome la readers if you havent watched it,Shobi's advice is to go watch it(:

Okay off to dance/jump/scream around the house happily((:

I can't figure out the feeling that i'm feeling.

2007-08-24T02:10:00.000-07:00

`Sinking..

Shobi gave school a miss today.
Was feeling sick and didn't really felt like going cause of art and stuff.
End up receiving phone call from Shakila to submit by today if not hafta retake the module):
So yeah,rushed through the cutting process and stuff and went to submit.
Clique was waiting for me(:
Thanks guys<3's

My mum thinks i'm sinking in some kind of melancholy.
Like WTH.
Okay Shobi agrees that i have been really quiet and down for the past 2 days.
Didn't even talk to my daddy much.
So yes,a feeling of sadness but apparently there are reasons to my behavior and moods.
Thanks to ___,____ and my screwed up geog results.
Taking about geog i can just cry,studied like some asshole and i ended up failing.
Feeling like some dumbfuck bitch.
So one more time anyone who comes to me and say stuff to rub it in i swear i will punch your goddamn it face.

The other reason is just uncanny.
No matter how hard i tried it wont work cause i will be misunderstood for sure-.-

On the brighter side problems and misunderstandings that i had with family has been sorted out.
And Math and Science results kinda boosted me up.
Okay not exactly Maths but yeah la.
And weekends(:

okay thats about it ya'll.
Hmm stay happy my dear readers(:

SHENNA,HEYONG AND VANI I MISS YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH)):

I keep trying but
you just don't seem to appreciate me.
What else can i say to do or say to please you?
Bitch.
I hate the new you,the wannabe.
Be your old self wont you?
Why are you afraid to let 'em know who you really are?

2007-08-20T03:22:00.000-07:00

`I'M BACK((:

Haha,HELLO my beloved readers(:
BET you guys missed me.
Sorry for not updating fo so long.Have been so busy and when i am free i got no mood to blog!
Haha.
Okay COMMON TESTS ARE OVER((:
No more stress,no more mugging.
FREEDOM!
Haha.
I sound as if i just finished taking some major paper or smth.Tsk.

Okay okay so crap.
Hmmm CT's the geog was screwed, well i screwed it la.
Math was errr and Physics was errr also.
Haha.

So after school went out with dearie to have our secret date!and to celebrate our screw-ness.LOL.
Went to ps first to makan then headed toVivo.
Played at the playground like some small kiddo.Then played at the water area.Stoned abit.
Was fun sia.
REALLY had FUN though it was only 2 of us.
Was talking about STUFF,aint i a good listener dearie?!
Hehe.

Okay so i am here blogging.
Okay la this post is rather crappy but heck too happy to care.
Will keep it short ENJOY YO.

ps:i didnt get scolded dearie and sleepover some day?!

2007-07-27T19:42:00.000-07:00

`Thursday n Friday(:

Thursday was fun fun(:
Had to stay back in school for the fun fair trial thingum and cca.
And it was raining so SM and i sent SWL to the bus stop and went over to my crib to leave my bag.
Then i went to buy ice-cream(:
Eating ice-cream and playing in the rain is like the BEST(:
Stupid SM keep on running to all the sheltered places,damn ass can!
Haha i had fun despite getting all the weird stares from the people in the bus-stop(:
Fun fair trial went smooth.
Lg made me laugh so much that i was rolling on the floor laughing.
Haha.

Friday(:
Fell down at home on Thursday night and landed on my knee):
Best thing was that i took Morning run with the pain.
How dumb,pain got worse):
Art was like so unexpected,he didn't scold us(Me and SWL)
Then math-ed.
Math was a blast(:
SWL and i were singing high school musical songs esp,we're breaking free over and over again.
Felt cold so i took out my jacket then me and SWL were sharing the jacket like she one hand and i one.
Haha.
Then break followed by PE and break 2.
Geog was fun.
S couldn't make it for Tamil today so no Tamil class(:
Went Compass with SWL and SM.
BK-ed and walked around.
Home-ed.

Thats about it.
Weekends are really damn screwed.
So sad can hafta go to Tampinese stadium cause apparently we won something.(SWL,SM,S and ME)
That means i cant watch High School musical.
On the bright side............... and Matt is helping me borrow the High School DVD.Yay(:

When you walk away i count the steps that you take..

2007-07-24T01:23:00.000-07:00

`Sad day):

Heyo people.
Another useless-fied and emo post.
School was okay.
I just realized when you never actually want to see a particular person or when you tend to see someone you actually happen to see them the most.
Drats,double drats.
Actually i don't really understand someone now.
Dude you were so nice and loving what happen?
I mean you said you would always be there for me now you don't even bother about me when you walk past me what more console me?
Hah,hilarious.
You know something stop it with the bullshit contradictions cause I'm over it(gonna be over it,hopefully)
Its like each time i see you,my mood plunges down badly.
Then i recover and once again i see you.
!@##$!$%$$%%.

Like seriously man today is such a sad day.
Shobi's having cramps,some people giving me shit attitude and i just heard that my neighbour is like terribly sick and that the doc has only given her 24-48hours to live.
Seriously why must people die,its sucha sad thing.
Furthermore i love her,she's so sweet and lovely(:
*Cries*
And i asked my mum,"mummy would she be able to live slightly longer like for 2 more days or something?"
And my mum said no.
Though 2 days aint much of a difference i think it will obviously matter to her and her family and ME(:

On the bright side the only thing that makes me happy is playing with Shenna BELATED BELATED birthday gift for me(:Thanks dearie for spending forty bucks just so i will smile.
Oh and dearie i really love you though you are so dumb,deaf ,blind and forgetful and i know you love me the most.*ahems*

Okay so i'm at home alone now.
Parents left to visit her,Matt will be back late):
My back+ass bone very pain sia.
I want to go already.
Bye bye(:

2007-07-14T04:43:00.000-07:00

When you left I lost a part of me
Is this so hard to believe
Come back baby please 'cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
when times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
We belong together(:

Hmm..school has been pretty much the same and Shobi has been feeling worse):
I' feeling even more lonely and loser-fied.
I need to some how get back my old self cause i'm completely losing it now):
The above verse is meant for a friend.
Man do i want her back cause she was the only one whom i could lean on when times got rough now i'm alone no one.
Despite her fuck shit attitude no can replace her.
So i'm facing everything alone.
So let me tell you something you guys if Shobi does something stupid to herself once more if any fuckers dare to get angry ah..i will slap their faces.
Cause its dammit obvious you guys don't care coz if you did i wont be feeling like this right?
I'm plainly sick and tired of being treated as a fucking second fiddle.
Though i have faced this quite a number of times i just cant seem to save a piece of myself coz every time it i feel even more hurt.
I guess i hafta live with this fact that that everyone who claims that they love me don't love me at all.
Fucking liars.
And to my dear readers in future if you tell someone or promise someone that you will be there no matter what,please keep the promise.
Don't be like the people around me okay?
Yeah don't wish to continue.

2007-07-11T02:06:00.000-07:00

`Wednesday(:

Life For me is Not the Same
There's no One to turn to
Dont know why i let it go too far
Starting over it's so hard
Seems like everywhere I try to go
I keep thinking of you

The verse above the ones that i high lighted are the lines that best suit what I'm feeling now.
I'm feeling absolutely horrible.
I don't know how to explain why am i feeling so low,insecure and a complete loner.
Andand a complete loser.
Why dude why tell me no one is treating me fairly now.
Broke down badly after school and outside school felt really dumb thanks shenna for the longgg hug and letting me cry it out while i hugged you,love you.
Can i just quit,quit from school,home and even my life.
The only thing that keeps flashing on my mind is a penknife.
Tonight I'm breaking my promise to ya'll.
Sorry but its not easy everywhere i turn some sort of problems...
Call me a coward for not facing my problems but you guys just don't understand neither will you guys ever understand.
In school I'm just acting all ego but deep down only i know....
So tonight I'm stopping with the ego act and with the happy act,hate me or love me i dont care cause i know everyone alr hates me so no diff right if i be myself.
I just wonder that if i die will anyone even shed a drop of tear for me?
Doubt it,hah own sister already wishes that i was dead what more anyone else eh?
Anyway my online happy pill thanks for always listening to me and my problems dude.
So sweet that you're dropping by to say HI.
And i will help you with ahems.
Love ya.
I truly hope and pray that shenna will do well for her event.
Peace out ya'll.

Baby hold me close and let me cry out...

2007-07-06T02:15:00.000-07:00

`Friday(:

Yes yes skipped school yesterday cause wasn't feeling well.
Stomach was giving me problems,pain and vomiting.
Doctor said it was due to missing my meals and stuff/:
And if i don't take care it might get worse like getting ulcers in my stomach)):

School today was alright.
If not for those people in my Tamil class i think i will die la,they make it so entertaining(:
Anyhoos SM was so emo during Tamil):
Cheer up la,don't be so hard on yourself okay?
Shobi is there for you too(:

Damn la walked back home alone and i started breaking down.
Took the lift so many times up and down to get my emotions back to a stable a level coz dad's at home and i didn't want him to know anything.Just went toilet straight and broke down again.
I hate the way that i am feeling now.
I just can't stand you*,contradicting bitch.
Wadeves bitch no one can take my place so its your fucking lost(:
That what i keep telling myself but i just don't get it you might as well just say it straight in my face then to behave like this right?
Just as i have thrown you out of my life you entered now you just leave again.
Wtf is you bloody problem eh?
My online happy pill a.k.a ash faster come online.
Shobi needs you and i miss you too):

So why wont you get out of my life?

2007-07-05T05:03:00.000-07:00

`Thursday(:

This is gonna be a really short post.
Gave school a miss yada yada...
Will update about that on my next post.

Anyhoos this is gonna be a dedication for SWL a.k.a SHENNA(:
Dearie please cheer up(:
Dont be sad it makes me really sad to see you like this.
And don't quit now that you have come so far,you can definitely do it and i will be right behind you all the way to cheer you.
So yeah..
CHEER UP DARL.
You promised you will always be there right?
And like what i promised i will be there for you no matter wat.
LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU CHICKA.
*Huggies and kisses*

2007-07-04T02:22:00.000-07:00

`Wednesday(:

I'm all sick again.
In school especially during geography i was like oh damn i think I'm gonna puke.
And i was suppose to be doing the graded assignment,damn can.
Can just say bye bye to that 10%.
School was fun excluding me being sick.

After school ate ice-cream and guess wat the moment i stepped into my house i ran to the toilet and puked/:
Felt really dizzy so slept for 2 hours,woke up and puked again.
And i cant stand the assholes,bloody bias shit.
Wadeves la think I'm fibbing for all i care hopefully i faint in school or something tomorrow maybe then they will realize.
C'mon la do you think i gain a damn thing from faking my illness?
You think i wanna go doc and get a MC to rest?
I rather go school then stay at home esp that you're at home tomorrow.
Sucker.

Anyhoos good luck SWL and SM for your competition tomorrow.
I'm so gonna miss Shenna.
Must you miss school?!
Love you loads dearie.
And you still owe me a birthday gift):
And SM you better not emo or I'm gonna kill you!

BABY, I can only help but wonder what life would be without you

2007-07-03T03:00:00.000-07:00

`Tuesday(:

Back to school today.
School was fun i suppose.
With Shenna's constant retard-ness.
Lame sia.
PE was damn shit can?
I'm starting to hate PE lessons thanks to T.
And during Math Shenna and i were laughing like no one's business.
After school saw Sivvy she's off to go out with D to buy for me my gift(:
And my treat is on Thursday hmm i think i got CCA.
Not sure maybe will skip CCA!!
Better feel honored ah Sivvy.

Damn i think i ate something wrong because i have been vomitting/:
Ice-cream i suppose?
Yucks i hate vomittiing):
Last night my dream was superb!!
Dream of BA,AHEMS,J AND K(:
What a weird combination of people together!But it was still awesome.
Man if only dreams come true!

Thats about it.
I feel like puking again/:

I miss you so bad that i can't sleep..

2007-07-01T18:09:00.000-07:00

`Shitass.

Was debating if i should make breakfast or blog.
Went to make pancakes for myself and now blogging!
Haha.
Anyhoos woke up early so that i can bathe,make breakfast and blog in time for OC.
Damn hell there's no OC today but some Diana thingum.
Arghhhh.
So much for waking up early.
I'm just gonna rot at home la,how can they do this??!
The day that I'm at home the tv programme sucks bigg time.
I dont even have my phone with me to text sugar.
Neither can i call her cause she had to go back to school.

Anyways this whole weekend i have been really down.
Had a really bad breakdown on Friday.
I like lost faith in everything even praying.
And i got scolded from SM for saying that but hey thats e fact.
So on Saturday i sat down trying to work my problems out.
Guess I'm trying to clear some mental space.
I actually wrote a poem about something that has been bugging me alot and wanted to post but decided to go against that.
I have enough problems already cause for sure there will be other problems if i post that on my blog.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

2007-06-29T19:02:00.000-07:00

`First week of school(:

Hello earthlings.
This is gonna be a long post(i think) cause i will be blogging about the whole week.

[Monday]
First day of school.
So had a really longg assembly.
Then had contact time.
Had English after that,haha i got praised by LTL.
So got dismissed early with SM while the rest were getting scolded.
And i swear i cant remember anything else.
Oh and Heyong gave me my belated birthday gift.Thank you(:
Mum had to rush to bring P to hospital at night so me and Matt was at home alone.
Had the occasional fight with Matt and ended up having head injury):

[Tuesday]
Oh no,i cant really remeber anything at all.
Just that Mdm C is letting us sit with anyone so i am sitting with SWL.
And thank you SM for my belated birthday gift(:

[Thursay]
Skipped to Thursday cause i don't remember anything that happened on Wednesday.
Oh Gayu gave me my bleated birthday gift on Wednesday so Thank you(:
Finally,i have someone to attend my CCA with!
Cassandra!!!
MIT absolutely slack and with Cassandra around=major fun((:
Cassandra my MIT/CCA partner ILY(:

[Friday]
Had the walk-a-jog yesterday.
Took part in the competitor's event when i have back injury-.-
Well the school did not give us much of a choice.
Came home and had to face my parents stupid ridiculous questions.
Man was i upset with alot of stuff yesterday,really was.
Had a longggg talk with sugar we both were practically shouting out our problems to each other.
Feels damn nice to let all your problems out.
And i realized that i am living for absolutely no one but myself so I'm not gonna give a fuck about people's opinions.
As long shobi ain't doing nothing wrong i don't hafta be guilty or sad to whatever shit the assholes have to say.

Anyhoos i think i got back a long lost friendship,actually two friendship(:
I'm so happy bout that and I'm not gonna bother if anyone dislikes the person I'm talking to.
Cause i just shut up though i dislike some people right so too bad if you dislike my friends(:
I need to make myself free and available for these people:
-Pauline(I miss her loads)
-Gayu(Owes me a treat!)
-Sivvy(Owes me treat and a birthday gift)
-SWL(Owes me treat and a birthday gift)
-Azu(Just outing)
-Happy pill(Just outing)
-Sugar(Just outing)

2007-06-22T23:01:00.000-07:00

`Mixed emotions/:

Yo people this is gonna be a special post for my sweetheart PAULINE(:
PP i love you so much.
I'm so sorry i wanted to blog about you long ago but your beloved son didnt allow me to use the damn computer.
Anyhoos,Pauline i hope you're doing fine.
I swear after hearing about some stuff on the 7th of june i cried alot.
And i felt weird i have never cried for anyone like this.
I really want to be there for you though now we both are like in different planet i still want to be there for you like how you were always there for me last year.
I still can remember last year when i had a fight with a certain person and when i was really breaking down and losing it the assurance you gave me...man i thank god for blessing me with a special loving friend like you.
Stay strong pauline and remember that i'm only a call away.
Love you forever my sweetheart(:
Outing soon(:

Thats about it for my special post.
Changed the blogskin,credits to MATT.Love the skin.
I don't want school to re-open.
I don't want to face a bitch you know.
Hmph and i really miss sugar.
Ahh going out with mummy now to do some shopping(:
Hafta finish up my homework when i come back cause i will be going out tomorrow again,to buy stupid soccer boots for my sister.
Tomorrow is the last day of the hols and it reminds me of the last day of March hols.
And thats when i saw AHEMS):
Time really flys.
Haish.

Damn i really miss last year.
I want last year to come back.
Though there were alot of bitter moments i always knew i had friends there for me now...i really dunno)):

Its like you got some kind of hold on me...

2007-06-21T03:59:00.000-07:00

`BOOHOO(:

HELLO(:
Daddy's back.
Yayness.
Finally i missed him so so much.
Mum says that we will be cruising this December.
Fasterr December come.
I dont want to go back to school.
Now that school's re-opening i cant watch the OC.
Bleahs.

Mum took a day off from work on Wednesday for my dental appointment.
The doc has given a referral letter and my mum has made an appointment already.
Mum say it will take time about a few months time.
Hmph fasterr sia.
Dad say most prob he wants to get my braces done with a private doc,according to him its more convenient?!
Wadevs i just want it done(:

Argh cramps go away,shobi don't want you!
Haha,okay nevermind.
Nothing else to say except that i got loads of stuff to do and settle.

Why are you so selfish?
You know that we are drifting apart yet you remain as thou it means nothing to you.
Fine if you dont care why must i?
Each time something happens between us you blame me and make me feel as if its my mistake.
Then you act as if you're all wounded up but deep down i know you're not.
I was so foolish not to see you through now i have so peace.
I'm not gonna call you,text you,chat nor send you offline msgs till you do.
Cause i'm sick n tired of being the one to always do that.
I really hope you prove me wrong and that you care about this friendship as much as i do.
Till then.

2007-06-17T17:02:00.000-07:00

`Smile(:

Hey.
Havent been blogging for about a week already.

Monday was my birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHOBI(:
Temple-ed in the morning.
Headed to Swenson's with my family went to to the branch which is at Changi Airport.
After taking our lunch bought my birthday cake from Swenson's and left.
Cut cake and went shopping.
Had loads of fun.
Will upload some pictures when i feel like it!
Thank you peeps for all the wishes and gifts.

Tuesday..Hmm i can't remember.
Omg i cant really remember what i did for the rest of the week.
Just that i went out alot.
With family and cousins.

Dad left to India for some work thingum:/
Man i really miss him so so much.
Hopefully that he will have a safe and a pleasant trip.

Yesterday had the sleepover with SWL.
Went temple with her and mum then took lunch at home did some filming.
After that we started playing the game of Life and Monopoly.
Hilarious sia,laugh until stomach so pain(:
Went heartland with SWL to get some stuff.
Came back dinner-ed and finished up the filming.
Then went to bed.
I woke up at 7.10,bathe and ready to leave to Nanyang Poly for some filming course and the pigg just woke up!!
Overall had fun with that pig.
Love ya pig((:

2007-06-08T01:31:00.000-07:00

`Jerks.

Man I'm like damn it pist with two fucking people.
When they were att,they were nice to me and now that they are not they are so bloody annoying and they are pissing me off like shit.
One is blaming me for every fuck that has happened,ungrateful sia didn't i stay up the night to console her?
The other one doesn't even talk to me properly and when i try to talk to her and explain i end up getting hurt.
Its their relationship,their problem..i don't even think they are as hurt as i am.
I'm not gonna talk to both.
#@$@#$!$$%#@!$%

Yesterday went shopping with mummy and Matt at compass.
Mum was looking at some shoes,and handbags.
The other one as usual looking at stupid stuff.
OMFG.I saw this so so fucking cute malay baby.
He/she is so cuteeee.
Awww so adorable.[Got reminded of someone]
Okay back to shopping saw this really pretty top,really loved it but it was too big.
Boo..and that was the smallest.
Damn oh and SWL i saw the present that i wanted.
You're right its forty bucks))):
But so niceeeeee i want.
Bought a pretty top and ate at BK.
SWL and SM i sat at the same place that we ate at!
Came back and watched Best of sweet sixteen.
Bow Wow is hottt.Haha.

Man,i really miss SWL.
Glad things got sorted,stupid me.
Heard from SM that SWL is sick)):
Take care shenna.
Rmb ystd the text?
SHENNA <3 SHOBI and SHOBI <3 SHENNA
I want to talk to you okay calling you now hopefully you answer!
Nope you didn't answer.
Sleeping?Dont know call me if you are free.

I MIGHT BE GOING M'SIA.YAYNESS(((:

2007-06-07T01:33:00.000-07:00

`Haish.

My back is in a horrible condition.
Atleast last time i still could run and stuff now totally cant)):
I cant even touch my backbone.
Stupid back is causing external pain stupid mind and problems giving me internal pain.

I'm crying now.
Was chatting with someone,not exactly chatting that person wasn't even talking.
So i asked what's up and she said I'm scared that i may say anything wrong to make you angry or smth.
I'm already feeling so fuck-ed up because i think things between S and me is going so fucking shit and the letter has no reply.
Now,oh man am i such a fucker?
Why is everyone making me feel like such a complete horrible bitch?
One say i selfish,another say i backstabber now this.
Fuck it la.
I know deep down i have tried my best and know that i don't deserve all the names such as selfishso why cant anyone understand shobi?

2007-06-04T22:11:00.000-07:00

`Relieved.

Hello.
Went back to school yst for the sleepover thingum.
Omg our plans are clashing badly.I thought of an idea but not sure if that's gonna work out.
Then went for lunch.
Aiyo it was screwed la,headed to ps first to food court to makan la.
All the places were crowded:/
Then went to j8,ate pasta.
Was rushing like mad cause SWL and SM had trng.

So yeah after that met up with sugar for awhile at junction.
That moron is still grounded.
Had a good time.
Sugar accompanied me int the bus((:
Had a long long talk with her,i feel so alive now.
Thanks my lovely.

After talking to her i realized i should take things slow.
I shouldn't bother myself with other people's problems cause after that i get so worked up.
So instead of trying to save all those fucked up people's friendship I'm gonna stop.
Cause it makes no sense why must i care so so much when i damn hell did nothing.
So stop all those sms-ing and offline msg's.
They wanna talk let them if not please,fuck off.

BUT i will continue sms-ing S cause in this case its not anyone's fault,actually i don't really no know what it is but not to frequent cause we need time to heal all our wounds right S?
All i know is i miss her):
Wrote her a letter hopefully things will be back to normal because i still can feel the tension around us.
If you read this S i wanna let you know this:ILY(:

I gotta settle alot of stuff now.
My plans are all clashing badly with each other and damn hell phone is not with me now.
Argh.

AHEMS WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?

2007-06-03T05:45:00.000-07:00

`Hurt.

I feel so hopeless,
I feel so lost,
I feel so used and dumped.
I feel like my heart is broken into gazillion pieces.
Haish.

Why is everyone treating me like this ah god?
It's like all of a sudden you seem to be the most important person to someone and the next the person completely ignores you and starts calling someone else the way the person treated you before.
I feel so torn and broken.
Have been crying so much till there's no more tears.
Went running ystd,when i haven't even recovered,smart eh?
Wished i had died in that spot,wont the world be rejoicing.
Hell yes it would.
I just couldn't take it so i did something really stupid to myself.
Actually i dot think its stupid,well...aiya no one would understand and i don't want anyone to bother(like anyone would).
Debating if i should go to school tomorrow or not.
Aiya..i'm afraid i just can't stand anymore heartbreaks i wont be able to take it.
Its obvious you people don't want me in your lives so yes,i'm officially stepping out of it.
Be happy folks without me in your lives.
Peace.

2007-06-01T21:37:00.000-07:00

`Why?

You* said you said it out of spite,
You said you have been treated unfair,
What about me?
Look,she* texts me often because she's very free
and i know you are not that's why sometimes things like "how are you" and "good morning dear"
is sent to you when i sent to her.
I only did that cause we hardly talk,i really miss you and was wondering how were you,
Is that a mistake?
And is that called a selfish creep?
After being with you for so long do you think i was acting towards you?
And that i gain happiness when you are feeling blue?
Puh-lease.
It breaks my heart to know that you think I'm using you.
Is that why i always cared for you and tried my level best to cheer you up or send you so many text?
And if i was just using you tell me would i bother opening up to you,trusting you and telling some of my problems.
I did all that because i care for you and thinking that we were friends.
Is that all wrong?
I truly understand how you feel because i have gone through it all.
You know it very well,a supposedly brother,2 good friends and a SIL,
whom made the same promise and now you.
Imagine how i feel not just this is not my only problem but others too.
I don't know how to emphasize to you that you DAMN HELL mean alot and alot to me.
Please don't break the promise like the rest cause cause you mean tons to me....

2007-05-31T17:33:00.000-07:00

`Hmmmm..

Hello wello(:
Hmm.. lets see this week was pretty amazing,it was like sitting in a roller coaster!
So yeah had ups and downs.

Tuesday just sucked badly like totally la.
Don't really want to think about it.
Clique outing that we're suppose to have got cancelled by me):
Well two reasons one was my high fever and second reason depression,well not exactly but yeah was upset.
And let me tell you SWL and SM are the best.They are so sweet.I was so worried that they would be upset because I'm not going and obviously they would not go cause heyong is also not responding to phone,think she's in chalet,anyhoos,they were awesome.Love ya my two sexaye ladies<3's

I should have just gone out on Wednesday without my parent permission la,i mean i was alone at home and had absolutely nothing to do from 10 in the morning till 6 in the evening.
But when i come to think of it i wonder how would i sneak off.I mean i cant even stand up.Because of the fever my head feels so heavy.And my cough makes i feel like i'm gonna cough out blood or my lungs hey i know it sound stupid but it ain't la,being sick is a pain.

Thursday...
Remember i said i was upset it was something to do with my family so i was dreading Thursday so so much but it was completely opposite from what i thought.Hah funny.
Morning was reading book,lately i have been reading.In these 5 days i read 8 books already.YAY(:
Then after lunch-ing went temple then came back to watch 'Thamirabrani',a Tamil film.Was okay.Loved the song.
Yeah after the movie they played some songs then they put the song "new york"
Man,poor Matt she became so sad.
Haish.

So today is Friday.One week of the school holidays are over already.
I'm still recovering so got not much activities to do/:
Ah its okay all my activities start only from Saturday so yeah.
I'm worried for someone now.Hopefully she's doing fine there,cant really seem to figure her out.

If you read this someone,take care and as said to you on Sunday no matter how strange things between us seem or no matter how far we seem to be i will always be there for you.Take CO and love ya(:

2007-05-28T04:27:00.000-07:00

`Sad kid):

SHOBI IS DAMN SAD NOW):
Ah staying at home is damn peaceful but when its quiet and i got nothing to do i will start thinking,thinking for ages.I used to love it now i detest the feeling.
Each time when i sit and think i become so emo):
I'm losing it.
I have got to do so much of stuff but i ain't doing a thing.
I'm just sitting here all numb and feeling dumb.
And the only reason is you*
Argh.
I hate you so so much.

That's it la,I'm done and over with you.
I care hell more than you do,wait you don't even care.
I tried okay,i tried to my maximum.
I admit the first time it was my fault for not talking properly,dude do you know in what kind of position i was in?
Thats why i dint talk much,i needed time man.Why cant you understand.
Well I've decided la i have tried and there ain't gonna be more oppatunaties.
You don't care,fine be it.
Its your fucking lost bitch cause you will never get a friend like me who cares so much about you.

Hmm..feel kinda relieved now.
Having slight fever:/
Hate the weather man.
I got to start planning for the sleep over and stuff.

Think of you every second.I can't get nothing done

2007-05-27T16:46:00.000-07:00

`Bleahs.

Heyyy.
Was supposed to blog about somethings on my previous post but was too angry.

Anyways clique bought me a cake on Wednesday to celebrate my birthday earlier!Cause SWL would be in Malaysia,Heyong in some chalet and SM I'm not sure.
So yeah.Thanks guys<<33's

Meet the parents on Friday went smoothly especially Ms W.She said all good stuff(:
Thanks Ms.W for saving me.
Yeah Mrs.S wasn't in class so mummy went back to work.Then Mrs.S called her.
She said good stuff too.No complains((:

I didn't really do much on Saturday was sooo boring la.
Watched high school musical(:
Yeah,then practiced violin and went to bed.
Boring eh?

Sunday,I went for violin.
Mr.G was in a good mood.
But he told me to practice one particular note 500 times)):
Came home was suppose top have tuition but got cancelled(:
Please there's is nothing to study then my mother insists on having tuition.According to her i got one more lesson left so she say might as well finish then can pay her.
But she couldn't make it.Actually i don't mind having tuition.She's damn fun.
So lunch-ed with my fly.
Then went shopping with my mum.
Ended up buying so much of clothings.Haha.
So thats about it.
Off to go and watch GOAL(:

Thanks Matt for helping me change the blogskin and everything((:

2007-05-24T01:37:00.000-07:00

`Unappreciated.

School was awesome la.
Laugh,laugh,laugh and more LAUGHS!!
Macs-ed at heartland with SWL and SM.
Heyong couldn't come due to some choir thing):
Was damn happy till...i went home.

Fuck everything can.
My mother called and started scolding me for coming back so late.
Like wtf.
We only left school at 2.50 and left macs at 3.20 because SWL had to rush off for ballet.
Its like so lil' time spent and they make such big fuss.
i know i ain't the best kid yet i don't think i deserve all these biasness and shit.
They are just so frigging bias la anything also Matt this,Matt that.$@%#%%.
AH...as said i gave up on life la.I don't really see the point of living but just living for the sake of living.

My sugar sorry couldn't reply your text batt suddenly went flat.
I miss you like fuck too.
Eh i want to see you now.PLEASE.
You are the only thing that will make me smile now.I'm so fucking annoyed with my whole life now...Hopefully you will be online.Send me offline msg if you are online and I'm not.
Love ya<<33's *bear hug*

Once again gayu thanks for letting me vent my anger.
Love ya:)

And my that friend* i miss you:)

2007-05-22T04:34:00.000-07:00

`RAHH

School was good.
Tampiness-ed with Mdm Z and heyong.
Mdm Z drove Heyong and me there,had some briefing.
Hmmmm...now I'm kinda worried about the sleepover.ARGH!
Came back and no one was at home.
Guess what i did?
I watched saravana the movie again for the like don't know how many times.Hehe

Anyhoos,ILY GAYU:)
She made my day,okay more like evening.

Conversation between Gayu and me:
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
my birthday coming
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
but i'm nt looking forward
♥ Gayu says:
why not ?
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
coz shobi wishes that she was not born at all
♥ Gayu says:
well, gayu really thanks god for letting shobi be born as shes uber glad to have her in her life
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
omfg
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
you damn it nice can
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
ILY LA
♥ Gayu says:
Haha u noe u brighten up my day?
♥ Gayu says:
every time i see u, u wave and smile and i feel like so happy la. no matter whats bothering me

Thanks gayu really needed that to make my day.
Though i go around happily telling people my birthday is coming.I'm not even excited or happy.Feel so numb.
Because it keeps on reminding me of some stuff or someone.So yeah:(

You don't care about me do you?Thanks for acting and hurting me..

2007-05-21T02:53:00.000-07:00

`...

Heyy.
School was fine,it was good till Tamil la.
I think S is rather bias and i feel some people are so goddamn dishonest la,don't deserve marks still get it.
Wadever if they thinks it helps then good for you because in O's they don't just get marks like that its your disadvantage.Not mine.BITCH.
Yeah S left earlier due to some work,not sure though.
Went to the toilet and saw someone la.
Mood plunged,damn.
I'm not harping on the past its just difficult like aiya everytime walking past and the person so contradicting and for some fucking reason it hurts you deeply.Don't wish to elaborate when she herself don't care about me,not even 1/4 of how much i do,i can't do a damn thing can i?
IT lesson was rather funny,sitting with shenna is damn it hilarious.Got sudden effects,mouse can drop and the screen can tilt.Hilarious.
Then had to go for some stupid photo thingy.

I just realised that i have been telling everyone my birthday is coming happily.
But deep down only god knows whether i'm really happy.Really wished i wasn't even born.
It would be so peaceful for everyone.And that is for sure right happy pill,___,___ and ___?

Back has been hurting for such a long time.I give up on my life already la.Damn every fucking shit thats going on.

To you*:
Do you really care for me?
Have you really cared for me?
Once it was a fact now that you cared now its just a hope.
You are hurting me so so much.
Bleeding on the inside crying on the out.
Remember the promise you made?
Saying that you would take care of me till you leave the school.
Hah.Makes me laugh.
Just be honest wont you?
It will be less painful in that way for me,tell me whether you really cared ofr me and you have and will treasure the frenship.
Maybe SWL was correct,i forgive people easily because no matter what horrid stuff they do i forgive them.
And its the same here.
Haish.
I wanna be less forgiving in fact i want to be a stone hearted asshole.

It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real

2007-05-16T01:30:00.000-07:00

`Wednesday.

Hello.
Today was rather....
Got back math results:)
Totally didn't expect to pass.Got 30 for the paper.Yay.
Anyway Shenna and Santhiya CHEER UP.
Heck those insensitive ones,we three can do it!
Shenna,I feel so grossed by___ and ___.Haha.
Eh cant wait for the sleepover man,i got like 3 days and 2 nights to tell you about ahems and other stuff:))Hehe.

Came back and no one is at home.
Parents brought Matt to TTSH.
Poor Matt,shall pray for that idiot to get well.Love ya.
Chatting with Santhiya now.OMG so hilarious can i'm at home alone and she making me laugh till can cry.Haha.
And yes santhiya i'm a sweet lil'kid:))

Suddenly i feel like i am drifting away from sm:(

SUGAR!Lets meet up soon<<33's

2007-05-15T02:23:00.000-07:00

`I hate you.

Just posted like 15 minutes,went online.
SHE*was online.
Im breaking down badly.
I hate you.
Just shut up la.Your actions clearly shows you dont want me anymore.Fine la be that way.AND I SWEAR I WILL BE OUT OF YOUR LIFE.

Now even Matt is showing me attitude like fuck even though i just served her and stuff.
Like ever since when i get appreciated for all the things i have done.Becasue if everyone has they wont be hurting me so so much.

Conversation between me and Gayu:
♥ Gayu says:
okay okay. hey little one. promise me smthng?
Meet me at the southside,Baby we can go hide. says:
?
♥ Gayu says:
never trust anyone 100%
♥ Gayu says:
i dun wanna see u get ure hopes up all over again and then get hurt

Thanks gayu for cheering me up:) But no matter how hard i try to save a piece of myself i end up getting hurt very badly:(Haish.

SUGAR!IMY.And thanks for cheering me up too:)Love ya and call me again at night<<33's.

2007-05-15T01:18:00.000-07:00

`:))

EXAMS ARE OVER!!
Heyyy.
Haven't been updating because of all the tests and studying to do.
Though common tests are over i don't feel as happy as i should.Hmm..
Anyway papers were rather okay except for math.As usual i screwed it:((
Went over to sm's place after school.
Swimmed with Shenna:)Had loads of fun.Haha.
Eh shenna i am MACHO!!Hehe.
Okay..school was rather boring..
Poor matt is sick.I'm such a good sister can?Came home and served her lunch in bed.Aint i sweet?!Hehe.
Have some uploading of pictures to do when Shenna and Heyong came over to my crib:)
Ah..feeling tired i shall do it some other time.
Yay the weather's fine.Will be going to jog at about eight plus.

To sugar:
ILY my sugar.
Lets meet up soon okay?
I really really miss you luh and i'm not fibbing.Just cause i never chat with you when you came online doesn't mean i don't love you!STUPID i was busy!!
ILY ILY.
Take care and go and see the doctor!!

I hate you,you liar.

2007-05-04T04:49:00.000-07:00

`Thursday:))

School was indeed fun actually more of after school!
Ps-ed with shenna to just hang out and find heyong's gift.
At serangoon station saw __ and __!
Wanted to spy on them but nvm.
So headed off to ps,shopped and went LJS to eat.
I saw s!Haha.I miss him.Hope to see him soon(Tc my cousin brother)
Sat there for about nearly two hours eating and talking.
Wow,come to think about it,its been gazillion years since me and shenna talked about alot of stuff you know.Haha
Had fun man.
I want to go out with shenna like that more often.
Ah will be going ps with her on Monday:))
Thanks dearie for today had a good time:)
ILY<<33's

2007-04-26T01:09:00.000-07:00

`Dead:))

My blog is dead.
Havent been updating lately.
Its either i'm too tired or not in the mood.
Today was fun fun fun fun!
Excluding the whole recess time.
I have officially concluded that D is a fucking bitch:)
Pe was lame can?
Me and shenna were like pro?!for badminton then compete.
So lame.
What to do? we both are mad!
Then had Napfa 5 items and my back is hurting like@@!#$@#$@$#.
Everything was smooth can except the goddam sit and reach.
I dint even stretch my best yet i cant even stand straight.
Ouch la,so painful.
Now its hurting so so much.
Argh i got no heart to change my blong song but nevermind i will change it.
Changed it alr.
ENJOY.

To you*
Hello there my lovely.
I walk past you like i don't know you,
and you do the same.
Some days you talk to me,
and the next you don't.
Its like some days i am visible and some days I'm not.
Whatever it is,
Whatever people say you* will be that special friend i had in my heart<<33's

I MISS AHEMS!

OUT.

2007-04-20T06:26:00.000-07:00

`Thursday

hey yo DJ freak is in the building:))
Everything was fine,more than fine actually,fabulous until i had to see someone.
Was super high with Shebe before NAPFA 5 items can?
So high until i went to a prefect randomly and started singing:
Hey hey you you,
i don't like you.
And started singing like some mad ass.
Haha.
After seeing some stuff which i seriously did not want to my whole mood plunged down can?
Then D.
Bloody bitch can you stop bringing up my past.
It's my past la i was so goddam dumb so fucking hell stop it.
To top it all my back was so fucking painful so couldn't do 5 items/
@$!@#$!$#$!%$%!$%.
Anyhoos,i just wanna say Thank you shenna:)For everything.Love ya<<33's
You too vani<<33's

`Friday.
Mum asked me to skip school today because i was like in serious pain kinda thing.
But decided not too.
So the usual laughs,highness and madness.
Tamil was fun.
And santhiya complimented me,actually she stated a fact.
And after Tamil me and vani plus santhiya were walking around the school and i saw HER*
#$##%#$%.
And omfg me and vani saw 2 ppl showing their affection in public a.k.a PDA.
GROSS.

To HER*
I'm sick and tired,
of explaining to you how i feel.
Wasn't it last Friday when i thrashed out how i felt about some stuff?
I even cried and this is what i get?
You lied to me,
Not just to me you also lied to her*.
Stop it,can you just tell the truth rather than hurting both of us like that?
I have said enough and I've cried more than enough,
I have enough of all these shit.
Because after all i don't mean a dam thing to you so i doubt that you would care about how i feel?

To _____:
Stop being such a contradicting freak.
I don't care about what you wanna do cause I'm gonna stick to my policy,
Wanna talk,talk don't wanna talk then fuck off!
Cool?
Yeah.

I'm good with or without you:)

2007-04-17T03:05:00.000-07:00

`Getting over my stress,moving along.

HELLO:)
I'm considering if i should delete my blog post..hmm.
Nvm.
PC advised me.And once again she made me realize alot of stuff.
I don't care,I'm gonna overcome my stress,move along with my life.
I'm not going to harp over about my loved ones who left me.
Wait no longer loved ones.Even those who left a great impact after leaving came back!!
Because I'm irresistible!!Lol.
And I'm not gonna worry so much just affecting my health.
I'm gonna be a happy kid from today:))

School was fun!
You see shebe i brought you the chocolate:)
And Vani told me some sec 1 girl when to her and asked if i had a sister who left the school already.
Then Vani said ya.And she started screaming.WEIRD.
Nvm.
During lit that bitch shouted SHOBI,then run away.Coward.
Loser.
Public speaking was funn.
We had this part where the person sitting beside you has to intro you to the class.
Guess what shebe said?She was like shobi loves playing with Barbie dolls and loves ppg!
Embarrassing.
Actually i don't care la i do like Barbie dolls and its not like I'm the only one what.Heather also!

ooh listening to my blog song makes me oh-so highhhh!!

2007-04-16T03:40:00.000-07:00

`CONFUSED.STRESSED.FUCK-ED UP.

Wtf.Wtf.Wtf.
Just as i thought life was going pretty smooth got so much of things to worry about.
And its annoying like ****.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STRESSED isn't the only word to describe how i am feeling,a series of mixed emotions combined together is killing me.
No matter how much i try to convince myself nothing is helping.
And the song i'm listening to is not helping.:(((((

I wanna do what i did last time,3lines.
Family,Friends and love.
Serious.
But the only i am controlling is because i advice people not to do such stupid stuff.
@#$!@!@.
Life at home is simply so #$#$ and stressful la.
PRESSURE.
Then in school......don't have to go on alr.
I just wanna stay away from everyone tomorrow in school la.
Whats the point,everyone i love leaves me.Maybe azureen was right la.Its not them,its my attitude.Fuck.Though sometimes its not like a quarrels but some circumstances like going to another class.So best to keep myself prepared because no matter how hard i try to save a piece of myself so that i don't get hurt doesn't work.
Whatever.

Fuck everything that is going on.

2007-04-09T02:40:00.000-07:00

`Liar.

Hello.School was normal today.
Tamil super duper fun!!
S called me and beggar boy insane!
#!@#!@#$#
Haha.
Whatever anyway I'm really pist and upset by the way someone is behaving.

Dude why?
What happen to all those promises.
You simply move along with life,
Did you stop a second to see how she's doing?
You will feel like doing,you do it.
And you continue as if nothing has happened.
Leave all your personal problems alone,
how about me?
What did i do to deserve all these shit.
Dont lie to me.
Because i know no matter what things will not be the same.
I can already feel the goddamn distance.
Did i ask you to talk to me?
You came,you talked and now you leave me all alone.
What the hell did i do for all the people whom i love to keep on hurting me?

2007-04-07T21:11:00.000-07:00

`Sunday

Woke up early and went for violin.
Came back and Matt was leaving for her camp:((
OMFG.
I have never been sad when my sister goes for camp except her Pri.5 camp.
And i was only primary 1,so i cried la.
But now i don't know i feel sad when she has gone for so many camps.
I MISS HER:(((
Maybe thats cause for the past few months i and her started to bond.
SHE EVEN HUGGED ME BEFORE LEAVING FOR CAMP and she's not those who hugs me or anyone!
And i read her diary.
I feel like the world's worst sibling.
I saw her entry about me.
I cant believe it.
I had been such a bitch to her over someone who dont deserve my friendship and the best thing was my sister was going through fuck.
Oh man.
Matt,I'm truly sorry you are not the worst sibling i am.
For not understanding you and always annoying you.
I'm sorry you are way way important that her*.
I miss her and the reason is i miss talking to her but at any time Matt,you come first then to anyone.
Dude don't worry about anything now just concentrate on poly.
Just think that whatever has happened is for your own good.
Love ya:))

Shebe just called me,haha told her about AHEMS!!
Take care Shebe Webe Lone!!!<<33's

2007-04-07T01:09:00.000-07:00

`Confused.

Friday was indeed fun excluding the part shebe fell and sprained her ankle.
Nothing much happen had pe,then during pe shebe fell sprained her ankle.
Then had Chew house meeting after it ended brought shebe over to my crib so she can rest?!
Ya,anyway she called her mum and i sent her back.
Hopefully she recovers soon.

Today had Methodist walk.
Me and Vani were like dreading the whole thing but turned out we had fun.
And i saw him*,well i think.
It was like so unexpected.
I cannot believe la.
And i went omg for like 10 minutes non-stop.Haha.
I'm not sure if it's him but i dont want it to be him,only Vani will know the reason.Haha.
Okay so after Methodist walk came home,no one was at home.
Called tuition teacher and she had to go out so the lesson was cancelled:))
Then lunch-ed.
Matt went to cut hair and i stayed at home.
Nothing much was studying now off to practice violin.
Later that G start his lecture.
Haha.

To my wonderful SM:
Hey dude.
Thanks for hanging out with me the whole Methodist walk.
Thanks for listening to me and going on and on about AHEMS!
Thanks for bearing with me when i was rapping!
Thanks for bearing with me when i went super duper high when listening to that song*!
And dude you are so sweet you were so excited for me.Aww thanks.Love ya.

OUT.

2007-03-30T06:10:00.000-07:00

`FINALLY!

This 3 days,Wednesday,Thursday and Friday have been really shitted.
I was like so sad can?
So much problems and things revolving.
FINALLY today i've cleared my mind and yes,sucrose i know what i want alr.
She* talked to me today.Not much of a talk but it was.Hah.
And about ***** i dunno.If she wants to talk i'm fine if she dont want to can i force?
And if she dont want to..i dunno la and i cannot be bothered.She promised me anyway rmb?
Ya so i'm done with all this shit now.
School was rather err.Shebe never come)):
Talked to pauline on the phone today.OMFG i miss her!
Enough with that i wanna do some dedications now.

SHENNA:))
Hey dearie.ILY:)
Thanks alot for everything.Really.
The advices you gave me last year and even consoling me when you was sick yesterday night.
I really appreciate it.
Take care:)Get well soon okay?
Mr duck will be there for ya on the behalf of me to take care of you!
Haha.

MATT:))
Hey mattie!
Sorry if i was hard on you for the past few days about the whole azureen thing.
Take care and dont be sad ya?ILY my toopid sister:))

2007-03-29T03:31:00.000-07:00

`Fucking fuck.

This 2 days are just plain fuck.
I cried in school like some bitch because i miss someone.
WTF?
I hate it la.And to top it all Matt did something that really makes me wanna die.
She told her* that i miss her.
#@$@#$$@#$.
Look Matt,if you're reading this I'm sorry if i was too hard on you but I'm still so fucking angry.
Why did you tell her without my consent.
Yes,i do miss her i don't disagree but hey please don't tell me she doesn't feel it?
If she don't then,i can only conclude that she frigging hell did not treasure the friendship we had.
And what did she reply for what you said "i will try".
Wow amazing eh?
I'm so hurt la.
Wednesday i realised a bitch called her* fucker and you can ask santhiya how angry i got.
So much for treasuring that person.
I can go on and on but what is the fucking point when you alr know that the person dont care.

You know i cant even describe my emotions la.
I feel like punching the wall.Actually i alr did that and eneded up injuring myself.
How smart.
I wanna fall sick la so i can skip school.
Mentally and physically torn.

2007-03-27T01:17:00.000-07:00

`Tuesday:)

Today was indeed fun!
Haha.
Shebe was sick:(But she was as crazy as ever.
Home ec was hilarious thanks to sukanya's and vani's constant argument.
Even Mrs Nair agrees!Haha.
Then free period was okkayy.
Just finished up math homework and was talking abt buffalo!
Then recess was super funny with sukanya's rubbish.LOL.
Pe was err up and down!
I was super saddd about something or shld i say someone?!
Was in the stage of crying but didnt.
Played captains ball.That was funnn.Esp shobi catch!!!!
Lit was errr normal.
Math was fun excluding the part where the teacher walked out but it wasnt anyone's fault.
Yeah she walked out thats about it.
Oh and heyong tripped during math.
Me and shebe laughed till can die.HAHAHAHA.
Yeah thats about it for the day.
Will be going running later if it doesnt rain!

5 MORE DAYS<<33's

I miss her,
I miss her daily hugs,
I miss talking to her,
I miss texting her,
I miss calling her,
I miss her rubbish,
I miss someone carrying me,
In conclusion i miss her la.

2007-03-23T03:25:00.000-07:00

`Friday:)

Today was fun fun.
Haha.
morning run was so shitted can?
You run then walk then run then walk.Annoying luh.
Then had home ec.Was okay luh.
Shebe had Chinese so walked her to Chinese class.
Me and vani were walking around the whole school and was talking to her abt *ahems* and someone else.Haha.
Had fun.
Then recess was okay.
Chemistry is like so err...SCARY?!
She's so fierce la.Then we had to do some experiment or something.Me and shebe were eating the peanuts.Hehe.Sukanya and santhiya worse la.
Fun only started during Lit.The teach wasnt there.
Did the work she gave and me,shebe,suk and san played truth or dare.
HILARIOUS.
Santhiya!!Omfg.
Haha.Not fair?Dont worry will work out soon.Haha.
Then had tamil.Tamil was fun luh.
Segar forever being crazyyyy.
M.i.t the bonding session dunno what happened,went to the library and they werent there.
Went back home with suk and fernand.Sukrose so sweet she bought me a ice-cream.So surprising can?Haha.
Wathced fashion house!!
FASHION HOUSE RAWKS!!!<333'si'm>
Yeah...

I MISS *AHEMS*!<333's.
9 more days.

Good luck shebe,vani and suk for yr competition.

2007-03-21T02:40:00.000-07:00

`Wednesday.

Hey:)
I'm not feeling better but compared to ystd my mood is better and so is mind quite relaxed.
Dont know why but feeling better.Thank god.
Maybe because i wrote a super long letter to shebe and it helped?
I'm not sure but hey atleast i feel better and thats what matters?!Hah.

School was okay,fun indeed.The usual crapping around.
And during math sat with santhiya and was blabbering about Sunday.Haha and was complaining about my "dad"(Mr.ashraf eh?)Haha.
Hilarious.

I MISS SUNDAY:(
Haha,and matt is like you just saw ahem like 3 days ago?And you will be seeing like 2 weeks time.
True but two weeks is such a long time:((
But atleast compared to months i will stick to weeks.Hehe.

Cramps.Argh:/
I think i will be skipping pe this whole week.Not really in the mood,see first.

You're everything i want and everything i need.

2007-03-20T04:08:00.000-07:00

`Continue..
Hah.Guess what i posted like half an hour ago and i slashed myself alr.
Wonderful eh?
Yeah pist,hurt,annoyed.
This is how i feel.
Feel like getting a transfer of school or some shit.
My problems used to only haunt me at night making me sleepless now its like every minute kinda shit.
@#$#$%#%.

2007-03-20T03:22:00.000-07:00

`Monday.
Hey yes i agree my previous post very emo.Blah blah.
But i dont care la,that was what i feeling..ya like anyone would give a fuck.
Especially you*.
I feel hurt,sad.
I told you how i felt at that time.But all you did wasslike take care.
Maybe i expect too much?I dont think so.You expect me to care when you frigging hell dont care abt me.
Fine la be that way.You know at the rate things go i swear i will friggin hell slash myself.

2007-03-17T03:06:00.000-07:00

`Emo-shit.

Yes,i know haven't been updating.Yeah,holidays are not even holidays can.
Half the time is spent doing so much of time still what shit.

Yeah,read someone's blog and urm..now with so much shit revolving arnd my mind i got the urge to slash myself,2 lines.Reasons.one for family one for friends.
Yeah full stop luh dont wanna elaborate.So fucking hell hate my life la.
And if any bitch out there think i'm trying to get attention well simply this is what i got to say to you:fuck yourself.
You think someone will hurt themself to attract attention?You wont know what someone is going through la.
Wadever wanna think like that go ahead i dont give a fuck.This is my blog so i will type what i feel cause a blog basically is a online journal so yeah.
Just so shit-ed now cant think str8.Yeah blog sometime.

I wanna runaway where hell is a placed called my bloody life.

2007-03-09T14:56:00.000-08:00

`Sick:/

I HATE BEING SICK!
There's absolutely nothing nice to be sick, esp.if you're having fever on and off, with a blocked nose and bad cough:(((
Furthermore when i'm sick i dont do anything but sit and relax but instead of relaxing i start to think about lots of stuff and recall my past.And that TOTALLY sucks.
Hais.
School has been the same.Blah blah..
Got back report book and stuff.
There's Tamil camp on Monday and i still have not made up my mind.
I have been debating within myself..should i go or should i not go..
And i think _____ is overreacting about the whole tamil camp and the committee members.And i find her so selfish and i find her boot licking my tamil teacher.Ah what the heck.Shobi doesnt give a friggin care..wanna boot lick then boot lick lah.My only concern is to do well.Yet..should i go?Maybe i will go in the afternoon part since im in-charge of the talent time which is in the evening..So which means i will leave home early and then go out with vani then go for the camp late.Yepp..
My whole is aching,my head is so painful..arghhhh I HATE BEING SICK..
I shall go and rest.

OUT.

2007-03-05T23:50:00.000-08:00

`Today.

Great,this is officially my 200th blog post.
I feeling so stupid or maybe thats cause i really am.
I screwed my exams and my results stinks.Hais.
History and math was badly done)):
1 MORE MARK!!!!!Hais.
My marks went up for scince so i got A1 now!That was something that made my day(:
Tamil was okay luh considering the fact that i dint prepare anything.But i still wished i had done better.I mean if santhiya is reading this she will be like..wad e hell but really if i got higher for tamil it will pull my average up.But im satisfied with 80!Thank you god:)
But i shall be more optimistic.I dint fail any subject so i dont have to go back for re-test.YAY!
Thats enough for the whole result thing.
Yesterday shebe,vani and suk had heats.
GO!
Haha shebe and vani came in second and suk fifth position for short put.
Thats about it.
OUT.

I really wish i could runaway and never come back...

2007-03-03T19:47:00.000-08:00

`Pist.

I was fine,super fine till now.
Fuck it.Wanted to blog about friday and ystd BUT now i dont wish.
Guess i have to blog abt that when Im HAPPY.
Bloody shit.I'm so angry and actually more like hurt.
I dont understand you*.
I really dont and at this point of time i really dont want to.What is you problem ah?Hais
Mummy (santhiya) always tells me not to bottle up my feelings and stuuf and that i shuold talk to someone about how i feel but at this moment ithink i will just live with this bloody feeling.Whats the point of taking my feelings or the problem when the person involbed doesnt give a fuck.Want to be this way i'm fucking hell fine with it.Its not like you are the only human who has feelings okay?I also do.HATE ME THEN PISS OFF.

2007-03-02T03:53:00.000-08:00

Hey people:)
Havent been blogging much lately.
So i shall blog what happened from monday to thursday (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEBE WEBE LONE!!
Since its was shebe's birthday i shall dedicate a small part of my post:)
Shenna thanks for always being there for shobi whenever i was down,or advicing shobi whenever i needed advice.And yes,i know i seem to be in a world of my own at times but that doesnt mean im not there for ya k?Take care and love you tons shebe webe lone:))(i love that name!!)

`Monday.
Today was okay luh.
Had math paper in the morning and science paper in the afternoon.
Math was ah dont wish to say.
Science was okay.Neither easy nor tough.
After school heyong or me went to heartland to collect shebe-webe's cake.Came back to school and surprised shebe with the cake.So yeah thats about it.

`Wednesday.
Since nothing much happened on tuesday shall skip to wednesday.
Wednesday was oh so bloody fun!
Haha.Had pe and stuff then during chapel shebe nearly fell off the chair.
Recess was so embarrasing can?
Hahahahahaha.
Oh my god!!Shenna!!!hahahaha.I shant mention it incase she* reads it!
Anyh,during scince was even better can?!
Shebe,santhosh,sucrose and came up with some crap!
Hahaha.Oh man hilarious.That mission aint completed yet.
And aft school shenna,santhiya and suk crashed my crib for the history project.
As usual it was a failure,as in we dint do the project and was crapping instead!
After that it started raining super heavily so me and shebe decided to go and get wet.As usual the other two dint want to come so me and shenna went to play in the playground when it was raining.So fun!!And we saw pl-lites!Yepp then went back santhosh and their socks went missing.WEIRD can?Haha had a great time.
Love you guys<<3's>

`Thursday.
Today was urmm..okay luh.
Nth much.Had d n t.
Quite boring i think?!
Cant rm a dam thing!

2007-02-21T01:34:00.000-08:00

`Wednesday:)

Common test is like the day after tomorrow!!
Better start mugging peeps if you wanna pass.
Yepp school's the same old.Quite boring.
Oh and santhiya shobi is tired to dedicate a post for my precious:))(Oh and ppl if you are wondering who is precious its not santhiya!)
So i shall just say this and log off:I LOVE MY PRECIOUS<<33's

2007-02-15T21:20:00.000-08:00

`V-day(:

Hey ya sexaye ladies!
V-day was fun!!
I really did not bother buying anyone anything cause got so many ppl's bidae coming up.
But then received so many can.Actually its not alot but considering the fact that i dint bother buying anyone anything.Haha.So i eneded up buying for ppl v-day gift.
Thanks to all those who bought for me:)Sivvy esp you<33
After school ps-ed with willy wolly family:)
I tell you willy wolly family are retards can?We laugh till can die.
Shebbie webbie you so funny can the train thing!Hahahahaha.
Okay nvm...
Lunch-ed at Pasta..
Haha,then vani left the rose in pasta.Stoopid.(incase you're wondering why isit funny it has more to the story)Yeah.Then walked aroung and headed back.
Got down at serangoon mrt station and me and Willy wolly 1 ran like mad for the bus.Haha.Shebbie the malay guy.Haha.And mr creepy.
So funny luh.I love willy wolly family and Sukanya+Santhiya:)

2007-02-13T02:11:00.000-08:00

`Confused kid:/

Life in school is currently fine.
I'm currently bloody confused about two things.
And i have no idea/clue in what to do/decide.
I hate it luh.I just hate the whole mixed feeling shit.Hais.

Abt smthing i feel:
Listen to your heart
Girl you know
We should be apart,I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry

2007-02-08T00:41:00.000-08:00

`Thursday.
Hey ya sexy ladies.
Matt helped me in the changing of my blogskin ystd.Thanks.Its awesome.
Anyway today was filled with ups and downs.
Morning part was fun because had two free periods and was laughing quite alot.
Then during recess something shit-fied happened.
Dont wish to elaborate.
Yeah..then things got better.Thanks gayu and gladys(spelling) for cheering me up<3's style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"> gayu for awhile and home-d.
SW's mum is here now.Not bothered.

Gayu:Hey.About ____ i've decided not to give a fuck.If she wanna make use of me its fine with me.Because what goes up will come down.So not bothered.Because if i take it seriously history will repeat itself and i dont want it to.Let her backstab or bitch for all i care.There's always something called karma.Thanks again for cheering me up and the ___ thing.___dam cute la.Aha.tc and loves:))

Missing this time,this day last week:(

2007-02-03T23:41:00.000-08:00

`Thaipusam:)

Okay,havent been blooging for awhile.
Last whole week my house was so thaipusam-fied.
Now that its over i miss it loads.Everyday last week i come home my house will be filled with my dad's friends and my mum will be home.Fun sia.
I miss it:((
Haha and shenna its not because of you-know-who.
Thursday was thaipusam so skipped school.
Dint go to school on friday because of my knee.Was swollen badly.
Went to the doc,he asked me to take the medicine and if the pain doesnt decrease i have to go back for an x-tray.
Hmm...thats abt it.
Got to go and study for history's SEQ.
Take care peeps.

2007-01-20T00:11:00.000-08:00

`Friday
Hey:)Dont konw why but felt lyk uploading that pic.
Friday was okay.
Morning run was okay,just that the route was stoopid.Dint walk durng the run.Yay.*Claps*
Wrote a superb long letter to sivvy.
Sivvy aint i a good PA?
Quite funny,I pulled sm's fbt down.
Haha.Ahems,saw smthing.Aha.
Super funny shenna,hy and i were laughing.Hehe.
Then during break 1 was talking to sivvy,.And the bitch was like glaring at us.
Wtf?Bitch.
Anyh,was telling ghost story during break 2.
So hilarious luh,they were all screaming.Who knew that i was such a brilliant storyteller.xD

I still miss her like fuck.
I doubt she does.Hais.

2007-01-18T03:58:00.000-08:00

`I miss her:(

School has been okay.
Same old,laugh,study,going out.
One thing i wanna blog about is today.
I cried.
I miss her like shit.
Wtf?
Why do i miss her after all that has happened?
Why?
Wait before i continue it is not x!
No!
Yes,back to missing her.
Sad.
Thats about it dont wish to elaborate.

2007-01-11T01:36:00.000-08:00

`Hmm..

Hey.Some fucked-up shitty-fied stuff happened ystd night.
Shant elaborate cause it will make me worse:(
Anyway thanks dearie (shenna) for being there for me.
Love you tuckloads.

School has been fine.Laughing and playing most of the time.
And mainly making fun of santhiya.
And here's an apology to someone who knows me and Santhiya.
SORRY!If we annoyed you:(
Went out with clique today.Ate at pizza hut.
Yeah wanted to blog about lots of stuff.Suddenly no mood.
Hais.

2007-01-05T20:13:00.000-08:00

`School has re-opened.

Hey ho:)
School has re-opened.
Everything is so confusing luh.They change the whole dam system.We dont even have our own classes so we cant leave our books under our table:(Plus have to carry our dam bags everywhere.Bloody heavy.Shoulders aching:(
Yeah.
And i so miss the seragoon north school,miss the classroom,the place where we sit and talk,the toilet(WWW) and the canteen*sobs*.
But i will get used to this school,no choice.
Weird seeing some people.
Saw A so many times on thursday.
Sad.Only god knows why i feel sad.
And saw D,omfg she looks so diff.
Haha.But atleast now like what shenna said she doesnt have identity crisis.
Good for her:)
School has been kinda fun.Laughing like crazy at Santhiya and heyong's clumsiness.
LOL.
And i think sm is pist with me.I dunno:/
Got to go folks.
Bye.

2006-12-31T04:48:00.000-08:00

`New year:))

Tomorrow is new year!
Omg,exciting.
Listening to 96.8,Oli's 100 countdown.Hope loosu pennae is no.1 :/
Yesterday was a super roller coaster day.
Was already so sad because there wont be any gathering tomorrow:(And mummy's constant nagging made me so emo.Yaeh then mummy brought me to buy a school bag and dad had a surprise.He got me vallavan cd:))Yes!I was dieing to watch,finally.Thanks dad<3movie>
Oh well since there aint any gathering mummy is going to make it up by treating me and matt with dad lunch and dinner:)
No hard feelings abt the gathering because will be seeing the whole lot next month so yeah.
Everythings cool.
Excited for tomorrow.
Hope atleast 2007 will be much better.
My new year resolutions:
+Be a good kid
+Never to fall into the dam trap(the x shit)
+Be more hardworking and to do well for my exams.
+Not to swear so much(will be tough)
+Enjoy 2007
And before signing off,wish all yr folks

Enjoy dudes.

2006-12-28T00:56:00.000-08:00

`Lala:))

Heyhey:)
Havent been updating,so lets see.
Christmas was okay,ate loads of chocolates and cakes.
Yum yum.
But kinda sad because s'ppose to have chalet with family friends but it got cancelled.
But instead of having it on christmas we've planned to have it on new year.
Yay:))

Theh ystd went for this fine dinning thing.
Cool.
The place was absolutely fab.It is in suntec if im not wrong.
Loved the place.
Told sm abt it and now she wants me to bring her there.
Haha.I shall like one fine day xD

School's going to open soon.
Sad eh?
I wanna go to school and stuff,meet my friends blah blah but the thing is that when school re-open cant slack.
Thats the reason i've been slacking 24/7 this week as its lyk the last week:(
Man am i curious about next year.
This year was a roller coaster.Alot of stuff happened.I wanna know how would it be.Was talking about this to shenna ystd.
Well we just have to wait and see.
Yupp,thats it.

Am i over you?Then why do i still think of you?

2006-12-23T15:53:00.000-08:00

`Trip to Bali

Alright i came back from Bali on Tuesday.
It was a rather cool experience(:
And i think this post is gonna be rather long.

Day One

My flight was at 7pm. SQ 148.
Watched Step Up in the plane.
Man it was freakin nice:)
MARIO was so freaking HOT!
Reached Denpasar Airport around 9.20pm
Once you come out of the airport you can smell the sea :/
And so made our way to the Resort.
Beside the Resort is Hard Rock Cafe Hotel,the hotel is so nice please!
Opposite Kuta Resort is the Kuta beach(:

That is how the room looks.
Not bad.Kinda cosy(
:
And it was too late to go and look around the area.
Couldnt sleep because i dint have Lil'B

Day Two

Woke up around 7 plus. The Resort we stayed in provided breakfast,Buffet style.

So took a taxi down to some place that was so boring la.
All the wood craft stuff which only interested my parents who were finding stuff for my house.
It was such a long journey 4 hours to and fro.
After that headed to this shopping center where they had from starbucks to even break talk.
Ate at pizza hut.
The taste wasnt bad.
Then went back to the Resort.
My sis and i went swimming at Resort's pool while my parent went for massage.

Then around 6. Bathed and went to the Kuta beach which was opp the Resort.
The sunset is just amazing.

Day Three

Was the first to wake up.
Dint even sleep the whole night.
Went for breakfast.
And so after eating,we had around an hour for our tour guide to come.
So went to the beach.
Man,i love the feeling.
The sea looked so nice.
I want to learn to surf!
So went back to our Resort the lobby and the tour guide was there.
First stop to this place some place where handicraft work are being done.

My parents were looking all the sculptures and all.
And i was looking outta the window and saw this

The next stop was this cave temple.

90% of the Bali pple are hindhu so i got to see some familiar statues.
And those female wearing berms had to wear a sarong!
Me and my mum had to wear.
Some 7 thingy,i forgot what it was.

Then,this is the cave.

This is the 2 things you see inside the cave.
3 sivalingamsand lord ganesha.

Then it was more than an hour drive to Mt kintamanu.
It was kinda cold up there.
Saw the volcano,can see some black thingy also.
That is the dried up lava.

After seeing that had lunch at the same place,so cool la.

From where we sat can see the volcano.
Ate Balinese and Indonesian food.Not bad the taste.
Then took more pics and left the place.
Then another one hour journey to this Balinese house to see their daily life style.
On our way stopped at this place to see the local way of how rice is being harvested.
Kinda cool.

It was drizzling so i din take any pics at the Balinese house. Then,can see life chickens running here and there.
The rooms were small and like got no ventilation. They even had their own family temple. And had a well,which was so freakin deep.
More like kampong-y feeling.
Then the last stop to this beach. While waiting for dinner to be served,played in the beach. Haha((:
Stoopid sister of mine made me follow her to collect seashells with her. In the end she din lyk -.- Man,it was so cool to have dinner by the beach and watch the sunset at the same time.

The food was nice :D

Thats where we were seated.
There were 2 other Indian family too.

Then after eating slacked for a while there and left.
Went back to our Resort. Quick wash up and walked around our Resort area. Loads of shops.
But din buy anything cos the price nearly the same as Singapore.
So yea went back to the Resort and had another sleepless night.

Day Four
Breakfast-d.
Right,so took a cab down to this other beach called erm i forgot.
But the sea there is less rough compared to Kuta Beach.
Matt went PARASAILING!!
She wanted to go again but it was rather ex cos its all in US currency.
Then my parents went to the turtle island.
While matt and i went snorkling! It was alright. I so wanted to go jet skiing but i din.
Played at the shore with the sand.haha
And left the place around 6 plus.
Came back to our Resort. Dinner-d at Macs which was right beside our Resort.
Packed our stuff and tried sleeping but didnt again.

Day Five
Breakfast-d. Went to the beach for the last time.
Each time you go to the beach,there will be ppl asking you to braid yr hair,buy this and that.
Walked for a while and went back to Resort.

Then made our way to the Airport.Checked-in.
Boarded the plane at 1.05pm

I was suppose to seat near the window but matt wont let me:(

The flight delayed.Cos of the bad weather in S'pore.
Landed safely.
Alright i am done blogging about my trip to Bali.
Bali was okay luh.
Okay i copied and pasted most of it form matt's blog xD
Wads the point of typing everything so i just copied,pasted and edited! Thats it.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!((:

2006-12-14T18:24:00.000-08:00

`Today is finally here.

Finally man i've stopped worrying.
About wadever i was worrying abt,aft seeing my frenster.
Yay:)
Leaving today,miss me xD
Before i leave i wanna post about the ppl i miss dearly.

I MISS MY PARTNER,SHENNA:)
I MISS MY DARLING SM,VANI:)
I MISS HEYONG:)
I MISS MY 'MUMMY',SANTHIYA:)
I MISS RAVEN,SUKANYA:)
I MISS PENELOPE:)
I MISS MY LG GF,JOVEE:)
I MISS LEE HUANG:)
I MISS MY EXIE,SIVVY:)
I MISS GAYU:)
I MISS PAULINE:)

*It is in no order!

I still do miss other ppl.
But these are the ppl i miss the most.
Yepp.
See ya guys.

2006-12-13T18:57:00.000-08:00

`Depressed

I dunno why am i feeling so emo.
Not just today but for the past few days i have been feeling lyk that.
Hais.
Maybe what i had thought is true.
I am a loner and i dont deserve any friends.
Whats the point of having friends when i always fight with em?
I was looking forward for tomorrow for so long and now i'm so down.
Life has never been fair to me.
Anyh,thanks to sm, exie,'mummy' and for those who were always there for me this hols.
Dont worry i swear i will never burden you all anyfurther.
Once again thanks.

2006-12-12T22:19:00.000-08:00

`Me and SM:)

I wanna blog abt my darling SM:))
Dude,thanks for always being there for me.
Happy or sad,you're always there for me.
You're the greatest SM anyone can ask for.
THANKS BABE:)
Rmb,WE RIDEE:)))(our secret)
Tc and Love ya loads<<333's

2006-12-10T18:12:00.000-08:00

`Busy

Man past few days have been really busy.
Thats why i couldnt blog.
And sorry folks.I know,i know.
I have alot of linking and re-linking stuff to do.
SORRY.
Atleast ystd was fun.
Mummy had meeting ystd though it was sunday.
Her meeting ended only at 5.
Went to pick her up with dada and matt.
Headed to j8 to buy a new digi cam cause stoopid matt spoiled the previous one.
Went to food junction to makan.
Then bought a new top for me!Yay:)
Went home.
Yepp thats about it.
oh,and i pimp-d my room on saturday.
Mummy was nagging saying its very messy,blah blah.
So did loads of throwing and cleaning.
For today i dont think there will be any going out.
Will have to start packing for my Bali trip.

Counting down the days:5Days.
I cant wait.

2006-12-06T00:00:00.000-08:00

`Taufik(:

Hot((:

Hello.
TAUFIK IS SO GODDAM HOT!
Hehe.
Anyh,went out with mummy ystd.
Met her at kovan station aft.her work.
Shopped for some clothings,then bought school shoes and some stuff from popular.
Suppose to go shopping tonight but cousin bro is coming over.
And i guess he's sleeping over.
Drats.
No that i dont want him to stay over,i wanted to go shopping with my mum.
The best part its just me and mummy going for shopping.
Matt doesnt want to come.
Hurray.
Nevrmind since there aint anymore violin classes during weekends i will be going shopping this weekend!
Yipee!
Usually i hate going shopping with mummy now i LOVE it.
Hehe.
Thats about it or and me and ____ are back to fwens:)
Yay!
ILY!
Thats it and I LOVE TAUFIK!

2006-12-04T18:46:00.000-08:00

`Emotions...

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
I'm Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song

2006-12-04T02:25:00.000-08:00

`Pist.

Eh bitch how many times have i said to you
that I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU AND YOUR GODDAM BUSY LOVE LIFE?!
Man it is annoying.
You are busy flinging here and there.
Dint you read my previous post?
You read yet,you got the cheeks to ask me "eh who's that person you're referring to?"
Omfg luh.
You just go and telling abt yr love life and the best part is that you hurt me in alot of ways.
I'm currently superb busy with alot of stuff.
Then when i tell you im busy you hang down the phone like wtf.
You know what i had enough stop it.
I will be nice enough to elaborate why am i so pist with you.
Look,its okay if you call me and talk about problems.
REAL VALID ONES.
Not problems like eh do you think i should break up with____
Fuck you luh.
I hate ppl who fling so please shuddup.

2006-12-03T19:28:00.000-08:00

`Finally!

Finally i have changed my blogskin and song!
I love my current blogskin cause its more of the limegreen colour!!
Hehe.
Finally manage to sleep peacefully.
Havent been able to get some sleep for the past few days.
Sleeping arnd 12/1 plus and waking up and seven in the morning.
Or my stupid sister using the phone at night which spoils my sleep.
Atleast today morning i slept till 10!!
And finally mummy is bringing me to ps to buy me Fbts!!
And we will be going shopping this whole week!
YAY!!
Oh and i've been having bad gastric(spelling?!) pain.
I've been dietingnd mummy is nagging at me everyday to eat.
And since my pain is getting worst my mum might be bringing me to the doc:/
I'm begging her not to bring me doc!
Hais.
Yupp,thats abt the current stuff that's happening.
Now i need to vent some stuff out.

To whom it may concern:
Stop being so daft.
What rubbish that you only listen to love songs and stuff when you arew in a relationship.
Like wtf.
Its up to each indivitual likings to what they listen to.
You fucking hell dont go arnd and tell ppl not tot listen to it.
Oh man will you ever grow up?

To whom ever it may concern:
You know what?
I dont give a fucking care whether you are busy now or not.
Just stop making use of ppl luh.
When you needed company you find for me,now when you dont need any company you completely ignore the person like fuck.
I really dont care what you up to and stuff.
And i've decided not to find out too.

I just miss ___.
She used to be someone who was really close to me.
I miss talking to her like i used to.
She was someone whom i shared all my problems with and vice versa.
I truly miss you.

2006-11-29T23:38:00.000-08:00

`I'm back!

Finally after 20 days,the computer is back.
Haha.
Life's pretty much the same just that i am kinda busy now.
Running,reading,watching movie,shopping ,preparing for my oversea's trip etc..
I'm off to change my blogskin and song.
Bye:))

2006-11-09T21:55:00.000-08:00

`Friday

Hello:))
As requested by my fellow babes,i deleted my previous post.
That day shobi was emo-ing lyk shit.
Yepp.
Anyways,chalet was okay.
I dint stay over,parents didnt allow.
Thursday was the best,went wild wild wet!!!
And half the time i was making fun of sm.
Haha.
Because she doesnt know how to swim, so i was making fun.
Then we keep on sliding the family slide.
Bloody fun.
Then left and headed home.
Can't wait for saturday,going out for dinner with my mummy.
Yes,things between me n my mummy is better*dances arnd happily*
And thanks shenna for everything.
For listening to me,for consoling me etc.
I love you shebelone:)))
Done blogging,going to hit the bad and watch tv xD

2006-10-31T19:40:00.000-08:00

`I love danity kane:))

I dunno what to blog.
Life is just boring.boring.
Gayu told me something super bloody funny online.
Nevermind.I shall be nice and not blog abt it.
Nth much.
And oh yeah,i heart gai3:)

2006-10-31T05:22:00.000-08:00

[My feelings about something]

Though i want to see you with her*
I feel like i'm being dumped like an unwanted piece or junk.
It hurts me to see you drift away from me.
The feeling that i'm feeling is either jealousy or insecurity.
If it was jealousy,
Was it fair for me to feel this way.
Or is it insecurity
Which was caused by bitter memories i had with someone make me feel this way.
I guess i just have to wait for time and fate to answer me.

2006-10-26T19:45:00.000-07:00

`Sick:/

Sorry people for not updating for so long.
Well,i'm sick again.
This year i keep on falling sick.
Ystd,nth much in school.
Morning collected the trophy for rugby.
Later had 'big sweep'.
I dint really do much.
Then went hall.
The weather was hot and i was wearing jacket.
Its ont like i wanted to wear one.
But becoz i was having fever.
Anyways,nth much then went home.
Was having very very high fever.
So daddy and mummy brought me to the doctor.
Doctor gave me a nab and loads of medicines.
Yucks.
Slept aft,taking medicines.
Being sick really sucks.
Thats about it i will blog more when i get well soon.
Buaiz.

2006-10-19T20:51:00.000-07:00

`Thursday

Today was really urmm good bad?!
Lets see.
Today had the rugby game.
Me,Shenna,Heyong,Penelope,Lee huang,Vani and Jovee played for the class.
We had no hope.
But we were lyk good?!(Thick skin.hahah)
Made it to the finals:)
For the finals we were playing against B2.
We were like not stressed afterall,we b band consider ourselves as one!
Yepp.Then for the penalty i and heyong had to play.
Bad.We were so dead luhh.
Then i lyk scored twice but they say not consisdered coz not on the line.
Fcuk.
B2 won!
Yayness!
Im happy for them but i teared aft.the game cause i mean my grp work so hard then i let them down:(
Futhermore i feel like i let myself down infront of *ahems*classmates.
Yepp.
Thanks to all who made me feel better
And thanks Heather and Samantha for making me feel better:))
Esp my teamates who took it easy.
Thanks.
And thanks wanleng and those in B2 who made me feel better.
I love B band.
B band rawks.
Atleats we are second:))
*3 cheers for b band:))*

2006-10-18T05:43:00.000-07:00

`Wednesday

Today was super doopa fun:))
School was bloody slack.
And its bugging me.
Slacking so much is making me so boredddd.
Anyways,aft.school went vani's crib.
Cool.Went swimming there with hy,shenna and vani.
Bloody fun.
We wore swimming suit inside and wore tee and pri school shorts outside.
Like duh!Who wants to walk arng in a condo in a swim suit?!
Hahaha.
Anyways had loads and loads of fun.
I simply love shenna,heyong and vani:))
And not forgetting penelope and simba.
I love sivvy too:)))))

There's rugby match tom.
Kinda scared.
Im the team head.
Hahaha.
Hope we will have loads of fun.

2006-10-17T02:07:00.000-07:00

`Pissed.

Im having a bad headache now:/
Sad and pist over some stuff.
School has been okay.
Plainly slacking only.
I will update later,not in the mood now.
And the bloody song i'm listening now making me cry.*sobs*
And i miss sivvy.

p:s I'm still not over you:(

2006-10-13T01:51:00.000-07:00

`Bored.

Im so bloody bored.
I dunno.
Wads wrong with me.
Past few days i've been like a roller coaster.
Im happy one moment then im sad.
I dun even know what i want.
Im happy when i see her*
But i feel pist n sad.
Lyk wth.
I hate myself.
I think this is enough for now.
Shall stop here.

2006-10-12T20:44:00.000-07:00

`Friday

Not feeling well :/
Having stomach cramps n fever.
So i never go plmc for e founder's day thing.
Staying at home is so boring esp,when you're sick.
Cant really do much.
Got back all my results alr.
Sucks big time:(
Tamil,math n english was okay i guess?!
Ystd e results sucks lyk ****.
Im so stoopid.
I wrote in my leg and hand some stuff.
Then two teachers caught me.
They were lyk dont write in yr leg again blahblah..
Kinda down until shenna made stoopid jokes n made me laugh.
Atleast im kinda happy coz i din fail any subjects.
I thot i will flung badly,luckily i dint.
I just wished that i was more consistent in studying.
Hais.
Stomach is just killing me.
Thats about me im gonna hit e bed soon.
Nothing else for me to do.

I have tried and tried
to get you out of my mind
But i cant.
As each day goes by,
im lost n confused
And have nothing to lose.
But still i not over you.

2006-10-10T05:35:00.000-07:00

`Monday

Today we had no school.
Because of some marking day thing.
Went j8 with darlings to watch STAY ALIVE!
Funny sia,suk n san huggin each other coz they scared.
AHAHA.
Movie havent even start they scream:/
Weirdos.
Anyway,movie was nice.
Aft.movie went food junction to eat.
Walked arnd j8.
Laughing about carmit(spelling?!)
Yepp then 53ed home.
Overall,had a good time.

`Tuesday

School was slack today.
Did nothing mcuh.
Played stress lyk some mad people,laughing lyk crazyy.
Thats about it.
Yepp.
Sleepy and i feel well mentally and pysically unwell
Plainly sick n tired of living?!:/
Hais.

2006-10-06T02:47:00.000-07:00

Hey!!Shobi is currently high.
Because..EOYS ARE OVER!!
yipee!!
Now i will be slacking 24/7.
Ahahahah.
Yay!!
Alot of things has happened?!
Too lazy too update.
Anyways,monday no school b-coz its marking day!!
Lalala.
Most prob.shobi going out.
With her darling shenna(see i blog abt you),super sm,hy and maybe suk n san.
Going to catch a movie.
I've been seeing my eye-candy for the past few days.
Whees.
To my own paul a.k.a julia:Hey sweety!!Thanks sweetheart for bloogin abt me.So sweet.I LOVE YA!missed you loads..See you arnd lil'paul.